You stupid children

If Mother Earth is mother of all mankind, she's certainly sad about having us under the exposure of the strong sun right now.
She is definitely sad for not being to protect us all from intensive UV light.
but we all know she already tried her best, while her children are hurting her without feeling guilty.
Who on earth can be so noble.
I rather to see her free from all these suffering, if this means we children have to die too.
I can't bear seeing her sad when she is growing us up.

What on earth is happening.
I know there's not even a mother on earth would call her child 'stupid'.

I would love a businessman husband.

Talked to my girlfriends about being businesswomen.
I have a mindset that kind people should not go for business as I think they can't probably earn big money and they're so easily to get cheated.
When you're an adult you can't deny how cruel and realistic this world is, and who knows when do people around you use you or take advantage on you.
I strongly objected my kind girlfriends to get involved in business field.
Well I am worry about them, and I kinda afraid these good girls are going to be evil if they ever become a businesswoman.
However after I think twice, I know good people will still be good, as long as they have close friends and family to stay with them, tell them how nice they actually are.
And this world would be more beautiful with these kind businessmen and businesswomen.
Perhaps kind people get cheated at first, but in the long term, people trust them and they not only earn money, they earn everything.
So I changed my mind.
As long as you, my kind, cute and caring girlfriend is not going to get cheated for like 3 times or more, go for it.
I also believe kindness can be spread, so make more businessmen and women kind, then everything will be wonderful.
I know you will. :)

Sometimes I need to watch fairy tale movie, this makes me believe in beautiful people and things.
I actually like to watch fairy tale movie. Lol.

Off to aunt's house for my before-AS-weekend!
Cheers people and happy studying! :)

Time cures everything.

Now that I realized, there's nothing more important than heart. 

I used to care about appearance so much and I was too silly to believe that character can be changed. 

But for now, heart is all I care. 

I always know a leopard doesn't change its spots. 

Sometimes you don't notice that you change your preference until people around you remind you. 

Then you realized, its impossible for you to get back to what you used to like, or even fell in love with. Because once bitten, twice shy. 

I am always glad that I did not hurt anyone so hard. 

If it takes a long time to recover, I know I would be strong enough to overcome everything, I'd rather I am the one getting hurt. Because I know to hurt someone, you need a whole life time to forgive yourself, or maybe not. 

She said, 'Trust me, you will find someone who loves you with your complicated, serious, interesting and cute characteristics.' 

Thou I know I am kinda boring. ;) 

I miss this girl so much, she is my love.

I know, time cures everything.

And past memories grow you up, into a better person.

Fragile is cute. Lol!

Loving someone makes you fragile, but why should we always stay strong? :)

You will miss the feeling you smile to sleep, the night over night sweet dreams and waking up feeling life is good.



Sometimes you have to let people gives you passion, towards everything. Hehee.

Shines my world

You know, I often wish I could be like some other girls, simple and cute.




The whole world shines when you are in love with someone.
But to be in love, I need so much courage.

I am expecting something which shines my world.

God, bless me, please.

I mean, seriously, I never thought I have tried my best in everything that I have done.
As long as the outcome is not as good as what I wanted, I will never give myself a reward.
How could you not hate yourself?
I mean, there's definitely something you don't really like about yourself that you can't make it perfect.
When people tell me how much they like themselves, I am seriously jealous.
How could you do that without blaming yourself for anything?
I already salute people who don't always feel bad for themselves, then how about people who like themselves so much?
I am not only jealous, I salute them.
I hope I can be like them, maybe not so much, just more than what I have been doing.

Life is hectic and I hope I will do well in everything.
Will be sitting for AS within 3 weeks time.

People says try your best and leave the rest to God.
So what if I already tried and I didn't get the outcome I want?
Does it mean that God thinks I don't deserve what I want?
Then its my fault.

Ow alright enough, I am enjoying this hectic life anyway.
Wish me luck!

When I am 26

When you're 13, you think world is wonderful and you will spend your whole life time to discover every sweetest thing on earth, and you started to worry you have got no enough time.

When you're 15, you found out not all things are beautiful, even love fades. You urged to gain more knowledge & experience, thinking that you might make thing different the next time.

When you're 16, you realize good is sometimes fake and bad is not really bad, everything has a grey uncertainty. You feel a little disappointed and also wondered.

When you're 17, you know life can't be meaningless, you are more hardworking than ever, you thought you might be changing the world when you can't bear seeing people starving while some people is wasting even if your mom tells you this is the fact and we probably can't change a thing, just make sure we're rich to waste.

When you're 19, you doubt when people around you started to earn their first salary, also enjoying their life while they're studying in school, having their meaningful life that you once thought it means nothing, and you hold your dream still. You still want to be a little different.

But sometimes, when nobody reminds you about your dream, you forget about it.

And when you're 25, you're living their meaningful life, having more fun thinking that commitment can be made when you have had enough joy.

When you're 28, you have a career, a husband/wife or probably a child, you can't leave all these behind, you say you can't be selfish. You can't anymore pursue your dream.


Then I don't want to turn 25, when I have to look into reality too hard.
I appreciate every remind from my little brother & my best friends.

Nothing is good.

I didn't mean to put any shit on my blog but I can't help because other than here, nobody deserves my shit.




I'm so sorry I am doing nothing good.

If there's any unhappiness.

I have been a sweet tooth these days which I think its not a good sign.
Other than gaining weight, I might become less healthy compared to the old me.
Despite the fact that I couldn't get over it, I chose to accept it until the day I am sick of it.
I know this day will come, just like you will be sick of anything of yours in any one day.



I am not in the mood and I am also lazy to spill or to keep.
I keep my voice most of the time as I knew no matter what I say, nobody is gonna listen, and of course, I don't think you ever understand.
I still believe that every joke has its purpose.
If I weren't that close to you, I don't simply make jokes on you.
Who knows if you care.
I would know I am not in the position to tease you, so that is why I don't accept every jokes from everybody.
I just don't wanna make anyone unpleasant, even a tiny mood swing.
I don't allow myself to do that.

I am very sleepy everyday in this exam period.

Disguise is an art for life.

Now that I know, people disguise themselves most with confidence.
I say this is a good thing, you know how important it is to be confident.
Friends come to you, family set you free, teachers adore you, even future ensure you.
Some people show you that they're confident, they are actually not.
I understand what is the story behind because I've done that too, and I think I might still need that in some cases in the future.
I can't deny that I need to fake some confidence when I bump into something which doesn't secure me.
The problem is, disguise is difficult to be handled and I always hope people doesn't look through me like I only left a little heartbeat for some situations.
Disguise is an art for life.

Hmm there is people who is over-confident but they like to disguise themselves in 'I-am-no-good-at-all' skin.
I say some of them are with poor acting skill.
I don't bother to give them praise as this makes their disguise even more obvious.
I care about their success in disguising.
I am not that kind, but I sincerely hope that they show out what they've got.
Confidence is something to be proud of, but of course, abilities and talent come before confidence and pride.
Its like an insult to hide your ability to people, as you probably think people might feel uneasy with your amazing talent.
Just like what people said, true friends don't get jealous of your greatness.

I think I am all bull-shitting, so you may just ignore me.

Too overwhelmed with Happiness.

Oh My God.
I am thankful that 3 Apr 2012 is not yet end of the world.
I am so glad I am still living now, in this I-thought-would-be-awful-2012.
And I never thought my 19th birthday could be so awesome!
In case you can't imagine how happy I was, I couldn't sleep last night as my mind couldn't stop working on those beautiful memories.
Thank you people for making my 19th birthday so awesome, I would never forget every details of it. Thank you! :)



I hope I have more photos but sadly, they're not in my phone.

Words can't describe it all but I am really really thankful for this perfect surprise. (thou I spoiled it by not showing up on time, sorry!)
You know how much it mean to me. Thank you, you awesome people. <3



I was surprised on 31st March by my two beautiful sweeties in Seremban.
Yes, thank you for showing up there making my day so wonderful!
Not to forget, these two girls managed to surprise me without fail finally at the age of 19.
Acting skill improved that I didn't even notice Eunice was actually hiding the surprise. Lol!
Bai's birthday song made me jump up off coach and it was too good watching by people in that restaurant! :D





What my point was, I thank God for everything, especially for sending wonderful people into my life, and making me stay connected with them.
For close friends who are not around, I know that I am in your mind, and that is more than enough, seriously. :)
This year, my 19th, I know everything will not only be good, but great.
:)

And lastly, I pray that these awesome people never leave, as I would treasure them for my whole life.