感受到爱的孩子不会变坏。

This gonna be long.

I'm leaving few days after and I'm so glad that I need not to be so stressed out anymore.
What I can say is, I enjoyed teaching, I enjoyed seeing the kids turning better every moment.
I definitely like being a teacher even though sometimes I doubt myself.
I want the best for them and I hate to leave them if they wouldn't have the chance to have a teacher who truly loves them.
But how I worked during this period is definitely not what I want.

我的孩子们中，有一半来自单亲家庭。
又或者，他们即将成为单亲家长的孩子。
他们不能每天见到父母，见面了也只是吃喝玩乐。
他们去过中国澳洲新加坡，吃过我没有机会品尝的食物。
可是除了赚钱，他们不明白爸爸妈妈为什么要把他们送进安亲班。
爸爸妈妈很少和这些孩子沟通，很多小习惯是由我转告的。
曾经有旁人说 “老师你真了解这位小朋友!”，妈妈说 “当然，她每天长时间面对孩子！”
我只能笑笑，妈妈，孩子每天长时间面对的应该是您。

一些单亲家长我可以理解，我会尽我的全力帮忙照顾和教导小孩。
可是请原谅我无能为力。
我没有多余的时间和力气打开每个孩子的内心。
我何尝不想让在家感觉不到温暖的孩子爱上他们的第二个家，我又何尝不想让他们感受到除了亲生妈妈，他们还有一个像妈妈的老师在爱着他们。
感受到爱的孩子不会变坏。

我还是没有办法理解公司的制度，口口声声地教育，有多少出自真心。
我只是觉得，家长已经越来越放肆。当然，谁让他们被宠坏？
他们不知道自己的孩子程度在哪里，他们不知道自己的小孩适合怎么样的教育方法。
他们更不知道怎么当父母。
他们赚钱，用钱来驱使老师教育他们的孩子。
他们不容许差错，他们觉得付得起钱就是世界能人。
他们不知道我们很多经验不足的老师都是初生之犊，我们没有经济压力。
他们不知道我们没有很高的酬劳，他们不知道教育和金钱拉不上一点关系。
有关系，我知道，现在的社会，有钱才是成功。
他们不知道我们需要花多少心思多少时间多少爱，来好好教导不是我们的孩子的孩子。
我不是母亲，我不知道有一个孩子是什么样的感觉。
是因为这样我们比较有耐心吗。

我现在知道，孩子的态度和说话方式都是模仿爸爸妈妈学来的。
爸爸妈妈怎么可以否认孩子不好的态度？老师怎么能够说谎瞒骗家长？
如果不可以接受自己的孩子，怎么教育，那又为什么要生？
原来这些父母不知道没有人可以控制孩子的智商？
我真的担心当科技进步，父母会有机会选择最好的胚胎来繁衍后代。
那么世界会变成什么样子。

我心疼的只是孩子。

他们没能选择自己的父母，父母可以选择生而教育，或生而不教。

Mind me showing off?

I know I'm late, but I still like to show off a bit.

The two girls came rushing down from kl to give me a warm birthday celebration.
I was so happy because they would never absent each year.
I couldn't stop knowing how important I am to them. HAHA
I'd love and be with them until the day I die. :-*

And this year, another two silly girls came surprised me at my company's front door.
I was famous under the cctv since then -.-
I have got a big bear from them!
I LOVE IT!
Because I'd never need to sleep alone again thinking that I need a big bolster to keep me company.
So caring of them. Hehee.
But I just made myself available for them for like, 5 minutes?
Cruel, but I need to continue cooking or else the kids would have to starve to death.
Give both of you a kiss to express my <3 .="" and="" br="" hsien="" qi="" shan="" thanks="" ying="">

And then, my mom!
Brought a big birthday cake for me in the afternoon, showed up so suddenly that I couldn't recognized her.
It was the first ever surprise from my mom Hehee.
Kids said, 'Don't bluff teacher, you look like 28 and your mom looks like 38?' -.-
NOT EVEN A HAPPY BIRTHDAY. How angelic -.-  -.-  -.-

Okay that's it. I was happy and grateful in all ways! :)
Don't make me expect more for my next birthday please....

Don't come to me

"For me, doctors are all nerd."
People nowadays are starting to despise doctors and teachers.
I was a little sad, I have been wanting to pursue either of these years ago.
Swear to God that you won't be trusting a doctor or you won't be needing them one day.

Kids are growing but I'm leaving.
I'd be really glad if they miss me just once in a blue moon.
xx