I didn't really want to hide anything.

Feeling happy recently other than stress from tonnes of past year questions.

Two more weeks to the real A2 exam which I have been longing for.

I wanted to finish it so badly so that I am more secured with my future.

I couldn't live without knowing and planning my future, its like not having a tomorrow.

I always do my best to avoid gossips from people.

I know how it can kill even you just did a minor mistake.

I can't imagine if this happens on me one day, so I stop myself from gossiping.

I don't understand why people judge so much when its none of their business.

They don't feel good by only judging, they even spread it like some awful disease.

I know how interesting it is to gossip but at the same time, you don't know how much it kills people.

I am doing something which I don't approve before.

If my friends stop sharing their things with me, then it is all my fault.

I no longer want to spread it as I was stopped before.

I lost the courage to expose when people around me tried to hide it.

Its not that easy to have the courage. It needs a lot of effort.

Don't ever ask me to hide anything from my loved ones, I can blame myself for don't know how long. 

I think I am not as stressful and hardworking as I was in AS, I am afraid that God might punish me in some ways.

I don't want it, I will make it up, please.

Ah, praying very hard!