Can I have a PLKN eve?

6 more days to go.
Mummy is nagging trying to persuade me to pack my luggage.
Well, i can only bring 2 bags.
what for i start it so early?
LOL. I'm only leaving for 3 months, and i'll still be in johor.
NO WORRIES.
I'm glad when people try to persuade me to start my studies in jan.
haha but i've not mentally prepare yet.
I'm only prepared for curry rice and unlimited ultraviolet rays.

Youngest brother will be starting his first day of secondary school life in ssi.
That one i just left for not more than one month.
congrats to him as he had successfully passed de interview that ssi set.
Clever boy.

What is de feeling when someone touch your heart by words?
I never expect it and i know its so precious.
I wouldnt have de second chance to be so lucky.
Thanks god.
I hope i will always deserve de first place in both of your heart.
You feel really great when you combine your future with de ones you love, by heart.
Thanks bai, thanks Unees.
I should have collect de tears in a small bottle.
those tears that rolled down my face when i read your words.

I hate facing those questions.
please keep your mouth shut and leave me in peace.
as you know, nobody knows de answer.

I know you are having mood swing too, little boy.
let's face the difficulties together.
JIA YOU. :)





I think something is fading.
I can understand why.

LEE MIN HO

Girls are troublesome.
Ow man.
:P

Well, its de end for my lee min ho.
when would i see him again?
I'm looking forward to seeing him every saturday.
So its like, de end :(
Why does it happen when i'm free enough to sit down to admire his face and his special aroma? Tell me please his fans.
Lol. :P

soon going PLKN.
And this actually spoilt my plan on 5th of jan.
Nvm, nvm. :)
I'm going to get into it with a very pretty mood, and out from it with a even dark skin plus muscular and fat body.
Wait and see. :)

i know it.

I think i'm too much.
And, sorry.





When you lost your way,
I'm always be right there for you.

************************

I too hope that Bai would go to the trip.
Even more than what you all hope for.

She taught me that,
tears don't mean anything.
and i alone can bear with it.
No matter how bad it is.
thanks God she's always with me.
<3

Zzzzzzzzzz.

笨蛋站起来
呆呆看着那个离去的背影
口水都要收不起来了
笨蛋就是笨蛋
不是故意的
可是他就是控制不了自己
就算他跟大伙儿在一起
就算就算
但那又怎么样?
笨蛋最好不要清醒
请还他一个自由的空间

我很不爽
我没有紧张
我只是很无奈
无奈到很没辄
我不想思考.

Stop wasting your time.

Like a bitch.


I believe in retribution.
So you better work hard.

<3

ONE

The girl cried.
With tears rolling in her eyes,
she told me that people dislike her.
And Man dumped her off.
I smiled, and i asked her to look at de mirror.

You're not pretty enough
Not sexy enough
Not clever enough
Not smart enough
Not adorable enough
Not soft enough
Not kind enough.

So, why should people like u?
So, why should Man love u forever?
what is wrong if they ignore u and dump u off?

U stopped crying.
I saw blood flowing out from every where.
GOD bless you, my little girl.

.....................................................

你爱的不是他
你爱的是谈恋爱的感觉

累吗
累
那么就放弃吧

你有绝对的自由
我不要勉强任何人
什么都好
什么都好了
尽力了
谁也不会怪你

Hujan emas di negara orang, hujan batu di negara sendiri. Lebih baik di negara sendiri.

爱了五年的老师
刚刚才说了再见
我告诉自己
这份爱是持续不断的
是永不停息的
因为他绝对值得

如果你想要拯救你的国家
请你摒弃极端的思想
不要悄悄地被种族主义者陷害
请你保持乐观的心态
坚持相信你的努力终有一天会得到收获
请你履行中庸的言行举止
让全国不同肤色的人民对你另眼相看
请你维护公正的心灵和思想
并坚守我为人人的原则
请你遵守任何诺言
哪怕那是被贫民或是富人紧记的诺言
请你抛弃以牙还牙的精神
善用己所不欲勿施于人的道德伦理

除了法律和政治学
也许历史是另一条让你拯救亲爱的国家的管道
如果不想咄咄逼人
如果不想投身尔虞我诈的世界
这条道路也许适合你

毕竟
要保持淑女形象
却又勇敢表达自身想法
并拥有社会一席之地
不面目狰狞或面红耳赤是挺困难的
不过相信自己
相信你的人民
相信你的国家
事情总会有转机
而且是无限转机

勿打肿脸皮充胖子
而且谨记
骄者必败

=.=

I dont scare to let you know.
I'm pissed off.

我可以,因为我可以. :)

不喜欢一个人在家
不喜欢一个人睡觉
不喜欢一个人吃饭
但是我可以

习惯了就不会想要改变
但是有些习惯已经不是那么重要
改一改,其实很简单

你知道被恶言相向的感觉
你知道被欺负的感觉
你也知道被冷落的感觉
所以你不会以这样的方式对待别人
这是自然定律
至少对于好人来说,这是

默契已经足够
所以有些话已经不需要多说
我们心里都了解
什么才是最重要的
什么才是令人快乐的,满意的结果

原来我这么糟
对不起
原谅我在你面前总是肆无忌惮
你知道吗
那是很久很久以前被我隐藏起来的性格
小时候的我
是你看见的现在的可恶的我

我想要看喜剧
我想要笑到流眼泪
我很享受把一个人逗得哈哈大笑的感觉
:)

也许我又错了.

如果我有刀

我会把那些命根子通通砍掉.

Because i didnt lie. :)

Ask me for the reason
Why do i want to become a psychologist.

I hope i will never forget,
how i admire the doctor who cured the hearts.
I hope i will never forget,
how the physically healthy people are flooded by tears.
I hope i will never forget,
how the heart sinks in your description.
I hope i will never forget,
how i want to help.
The road is hard cos you probably couldnt feed yourself.
Dad said, money is always more important than what you think by now.
Yeah, correct.
Dream is always broken cos of reality.
Everyone faces this problem, i supposed.
so, needless to be sad.
Still, i can help people in the physical way if i'm lucky enough.
Thanks to de God, first.
(:
so matrix is not the only choice.
Perhaps perhaps, i can head for something better.
And i wont give up my hope which has been built up years ago.
I would grab the chance no matter what.
There's something greater than $$, do you believe it?
LOL.
but, gain it first before you could do anything.
Bcos normally, the greatest comes after the great. :D




不要爱上她的容貌
因为她的容颜总有一天会老去
陪伴你的只剩一颗真心

A pig, a dog or a pigeon?

A pigeon, i supposed.

I see a dead lizard in my toilet.
If kakak is here, definitely it will disappear soon.
but too bad, no kakak anymore.
So de lizard will just stay there until de day of washing toilet by me to come.
O.M.G.
This sunday, i know.

FM.
500 server error.
and the error has actually made me stay awake for so long.
Worrying about my future.
I tell myself, its de best road, de only road.
but the person-in-charge made me crazy.
"TRY UNTIL YOU GET THROUGH."
Good one.
10/10/2010 is de deadline.

Its de first time i feel so uneasy of getting a present.
its hard.
And we were not happy about it.
I sensed that.
Something has changed and its no longer there.
So, who to be blamed?
as long as we found what we want. :)

All i want to do is to hold you tight.

When the little boy looks into my eyes,
I know i will never let him go.

I will always hug him tight.

:))

Courage leads to determination.

I missed Encik Adnan's class today.
:(((((((((((((((


Its enough, just once in a life time.
For The experience which is so challenging.
When it comes to my mind, i cant stop me from scolding myself.
LOL.
I know i will never be good enough
That's when the man told me that.
I never thought that you're lucky.
should i repeat this again and again?
This game should never started.
Since the day the man forgot his purpose.
I'm sorry.
The day for you to escape is nearly there.
awake from the nightmare, and start a brand new life.
GOOD LUCK to you, the unlucky man who dropped into the trap few years ago.

To screw up or not,it depends on you.
Every single marks count.
If you fail to get the 1 mark, you will be dead.
this time, no exception.
When you feel like giving up, please come to me.
I will give you what i own.

我告诉笼子里的小鸟
我想让你飞
我想打开困着你的笼子
小鸟告诉我
它宁愿被我困着
纵使它的翅膀已经长大
纵使它已经离开宽广的天空好久好久

如果你是异类
你会不会觉得幸福
如果你会
请让我知道

生病是弱者的表现
我只是想让我自己知道
她不值得你同情

Red lips.

清晨五点钟.

小丑又必须擦掉昨晚的泪痕,
开始一天快乐的旅程.
化妆,他最拿手.
尤其是红红厚厚的嘴唇.
他永远不会忘记这个嘴唇教他怎么微笑.

小丑在街上派气球,
小朋友的笑脸时他的安慰.
如果有一天看不见那些纯真的面容,
他宁愿离开这个世界.

我拍拍他的肩.
他转过头来用他的红色香肠嘴给我一个全世界最大的微笑.
我递上为他买的水,请他坐下.
他大口大口地喝水,没时间理我.

"你不喜欢这份差事,为什么要勉强自己去做?"
"这是我爸爸的心愿."
"那么你快乐吗?"
"快乐可以自己创造.
我知道这虽然不是我的志愿,我能够完成爸爸做不到的事,
也是一种幸福."
:)
他站起身,
把手中的气球放掉.

砰.
这个世界,你再也看不见他.

I see red in the heart.

And you will never know,
how it hurts when you claim that its our fault.

Have you ever try to think of it?
Logically and rationally?
And when she told me that i've chosen it wrongly, i have no guts to deny.
Because i myself think that way too.
do you want me to admit that i've made de wrong choice?
Perhaps we were not so clever.
And for your information, we're just like a sausage between de 2 pieces of bread.
Can you imagine that?
You will soon realise it one day =)
Buddies, dont be so sarcastic in treating your brother.
That is not his fault.
Cause its someone else who made this.
Just, you are lucky because you will never need to be a sausage.

She used to be so happy when she sees you.
but this time, she will rather run away instead of saying hi to you.
Pathetic?
Perhaps. She is no longer the idol for you.
When time goes by, everything fades.
Power is the most important thing in this world.
Do you worth her crying?
She wont. Not even a drop of tear.
You just upset her, and maybe them.
but she will choose to be quiet.

She miss those days,
when you say hi to her with a damn broad smile.

我不是公主

"Hey! Dont take photo of me,i'm not pretty today!"
XDD
"OK, no problem."
So,this photo is not the latest. :D
Ahma's birthday was on wednesday and we siblings gave her a surprise!
I know she will like the raspberry cheese cake, Blue sport shoes and the necklace.
Imagine the way she showed them off to her friends.
I couldnt stop laughing! HAHA.
Wish her a very good and healthy year,Muax ahma! :DD

Nowadays perverts are everywhere waiting for you.
Open your eyes big big and dig their eyes out if they take the advantage of you.
Curse them until they lose their life sticks. NOT THEIR LIFES.

I scare of the days after the retirement.
but i'm really looking forward to the agm.
I never thought that its the time for me to leave SJAM SSI.
Ish.
I scare LO.
Lalalalalalala. Tomorrow will always be better.






总是看见不该看见的东西。
记得把眼睛洗干净就好。
:)

=D

我发誓再也没有下一次.
再也不会了.

我会在那之前把眼泪流光.
都流光光.
你就不会看见我的眼泪.
每个人的自私都有理由
他们都不是故意的.
至少我觉得,是这样.

你怕什么?

如果只有他理解你在说什么,
如果只有他懂你...
对不起.
后悔还来得及吗?





Enjoy your holidays! :DDD

Do i own a chance?

Its like having a dream.
And i dont know whether i should wake up or continue sleeping.
When it comes to the reality,i wish i could never fell asleep.
Can i?
There's a chance to get closer but i'm just so lazy to make it through.
You know where you are. And you're really lucky.
Its not my world,not my life.

I feel like listening to the stories he had.
Perhaps there's no any good point.
I'm always a curious baby. :)
One day when i'm ready,i will go to him and tell him,
"Hey. Stories come,please."
Please please please.

It wasnt a right choice. Or a good decision.
You hate hearing that when you're worried about time.
You hate having a limit.
When you started to say IF.there's no longer the hope.
But there's still a hope.
I was dishonest.
I know i never think that you're lucky.
That's de only way,to be more confident.

I have something to tell you.
but i scare talking face-to-face.
i'm not brave enough.
Do i own a chance?

There's a rainbow after the rain.

I love it when people scold me for not taking care of myself.
;D

Sometimes i wonder.
You said they are your friends.
but you are not treating them as your friends.
A true friend will not only say hi to you or talk to you when he/she is in good mood.
Do you ever know how people feel when you ignore their smiling faces?
How hurt it is especially when you suddenly appear and tell them you need them when you really need them.
So,what is this?
One day when people are irritated and dont feel like bothering anymore,
you will only realise that you have lose the true friends who will actually stay by your side no matter what happens.
Bcos you hurt them.
That is not an excuse.
and people will know your true face years after.
Its not a long time. The sad case is,you wont get a true friend in the end.

When you're no longer a little girl,
you know that you dont need to care so much.
As long as everyone is happy,it is more than enough. ;)

I love exams.
I will definitely miss school days after i've grown up into a woman.
I will also miss all of you.

I didnt explain bcos i know i would have burst out crying.
I didnt know it is so important that i should have take the test.
I never know i can only remain my spirit by having the rank.
I am not going to lose my spirit bcos of that.
Something is kept deeply in my heart and it will no disappear bcos of the rank.
Nobody believes it,but i trust myself. :)

I love it when the boyfriend asked me not to skip tuition. ;D
although i felt like skipping so much and tried to be a naughty girl. :P

I want a license.
I want a car.

政治论

马来西亚出产什么？
人才呀。

我很欣赏黄明志。
他太勇敢了
我没有看他的短片，没有想看的欲望。
我知道他的特色是手语和粗话，就还好吧。
如果有一天，他把热心和这份爱国精神发挥在比较有教育概念的管道，
我会大大力鼓掌，为他喝彩！
黄明志加油。
不要因为一时被气昏了，就被虎视眈眈的人看中。
一次接着一次，总有一天马来西亚会失去一个创作人才
那时候，谁会为我们泄恨？
大家要看什么来过瘾？
不要贬低自己，这样我们和那些种族主义者没有差别啊。
我们是华族后代，自强不息的华族后代。
=)

爸爸常常要我关心政治和时事新闻。
爸爸，看了会气也。
像我家里弟弟，兴致勃勃，血气方刚，好像已经忍不住要投身政治界。
当他绕着我告诉我现实的丑恶和无奈，我会悄悄提醒他，
“要懂得耍小心机，但一定要出于泥而不染！”
很难，不过他会做到。
;DD
爸爸的志愿是警长。
我其实很想为他圆梦。
这么正义感十足的爸爸，你怎么能不觉得光荣？
可是我怕。我会这么勇敢吗？
哈哈。或许可以试试看。
我知道当警察的条件。
唯一令我不满的是，女警必须有至少48公斤的体重。
这样体格会健壮标准一些吗？
如果我是个矮冬瓜呢？
XDD

爸爸很棒。
我可不可以说，我像我的爸爸？
哈哈 ;P
他反对因为马来西亚政治腐败，华人看似没有出人头地的一天就移民的人。
尤其是人才。
他说，“要留在这里为国家做事，为真理打仗”
是啊。哈哈。
可惜，我爸爸老了。
父望子传吧。我也有一个正义感十足的弟弟呀。









我希望我有时光机。
我希望我有任意门。
我希望我有百宝袋。
我希望我有小叮当啦。

:)

Hold your head up high.

Happy birthday to the boyfriend! ;D

The cup i drew my logo on it.
And u know,all right reserved!

Happy birthday lee kuok zhen,the dearest boyfriend! ;D
Yesterday was too busy to blog but i know he wouldnt mind.
HAHA.
Made a cheesecake on my own,with my ah ma by my side.HAHA.
but it was my very first time ok.
How nice it is?
should have took a photo of it but i was in a rush,so...
nevermind,i know it is nice.
And i know he likes it!
:DDDD

Mulligan-Irish pub was not too bad.
but we were de only customers in de pub.
I thought it would be so crowded that everyone in de pub will celebrate natinal's and the boyfriend's birthdays together. LOL.
:( forgot to take picture laaaaaaa.
But you know,he smiles all day long! :DD
Happy sweet 17th the boyfriend!
wish him luck! He will be blessed by the GOD and ME! ;D

and Malaysia,
Happy birthday.
After 10 years,i know you will have grown up.

Jia you Sis and You!

When she cries,my heart melts.

I was afraid of facing it since long long ago.
I thought she was very ok about it.
They're steady.
Few days ago,the journey starts.
She was sad and i couldnt do anything for her.
Trials made me busy with my own thing,and when she needs me,i was whether studying or sleeping.
sorry Sis.
i know you will soon be fine.
We are all with you.
he will be strong there too.dont worry so much laa.
Smile because he wants you to! ;)
ily. ;D

"You can choose what you like, you have the right.
(end with a smiling face '(:')"
HAHA.
U know what.i love sat night and sunday!
I cant imagine the time i am forced to sleep alone again.
October,please dont come so early. :(
I love them too much.and i just cant control! Lol.

why is bird nest so delicious and expensive?
I KNOW.
I was picking swallows' feather from de bird nest.
i found sth in chocolate colour in de bird nest.
"That's swallow's blood," ah ma said.
.........so,can eat ah?
i dont care,i leave it there although i'm supposed to clear it.
So everyone will know what is the taste of blood. :P
U may try if u really enjoy eating bird nest.
btw i spent 2 hours listening to ah ma's stories! Not too bad la hor.Hehe.
Should have show someone my hard work.

=.=
=.=
=.=

The boyfriend's super birthday is coming.
:DDDD
see his super smiling face? HAHAHAHA.

如果你相信命运

妈妈不要小男孩了
小男孩哭哭啼啼，求妈妈原谅他，求妈妈不要抛弃他。
妈妈无可奈何。
小男孩不乖，小男孩总是惹妈妈生气
妈妈很无奈，也很矛盾
妈妈很爱小男孩，她不知道要用什么方法改变小男孩。
小男孩答应悔改，答应做妈妈的乖孩子，照着妈妈的要求。
妈妈决定给小男孩一个机会。

小男孩真的变乖了。
妈妈越来越疼爱小男孩
因为小男孩的乖巧和懂事，妈妈付出所有的爱。
她要给小男孩所有最好的，她要小男孩永远快乐
时间一分一秒地过，小男孩长大了
他知道妈妈爱他，他知道妈妈再也不会抛弃他，不会离开他。
或许可以说，他知道他可以依然好好的，就算失去了妈妈。
所以他的不乖巧不懂事，又回到他的骨子里
他看不见妈妈为他付出的努力，他选择无视妈妈对他的爱
他不知道，妈妈很伤心很难过。

小男孩也不想失去妈妈
他知道妈妈疼他
失去妈妈就等于失去一份得来不易的疼爱。
谁会这么笨，赶走这份礼物呢？
可是他不想当乖孩子，他不想再跟着妈妈为他设下的路线走。
他觉得自己不坏，虽然他不觉得自己好。
他知道他会惹妈妈不开心，可是他已经没有闲情逸致取悦妈妈。
他会履行儿子的义务照顾妈妈。
他请妈妈看开一点，不要再因为他的不懂事不快乐。
他也希望妈妈快乐
虽然他知道他是令妈妈快乐的最大元素。
但是，他做不到。






你害怕回忆过去，所以你忘了当时最初的感觉。

Give me a little bit of love,i will double it before i return it to you.

Sometimes the right person gives you something you dont need.
Sometimes the wrong person gives you everything that you need.
although you never ask from him or her. :D

I was stucked.
I feel bad when i read in everything but i dont express.
So how to leave a space in your brain for someone you love?
I realised i have been neglected people who is actually so important to me.
and when i realised,i notice that time isnt much for me to give back my love.
Can i ask the time to stop?
and when i want it to go faster,can i give time a hint? Just a hint =P
Time flies when you are concentrating on something.
so try not to look around when u feel like flying. Haha.

I secretly read my little bro's (hmmmm..) memo?
That was few days ago when he was asleep. XD
He actually has a girlfriend,sweet puppy love.
But how do you know their love dont last long?
the truth is,you are more like a coward when you are getting older.
that is why old people always refuse to play space shot =.=
and since they are willing to fight for the same goal,same future,
why do we old and timid people insist on our decision?
As long as they dont do something that showed on TV.
I know he wont,my little bro wont do that. Bcos he's my little brother.

Dont be afraid to face your true feelings.
Say it out loud if you're in love,
throw the thing away that you are not interested in anymore,
when you're still brave enough to do that
I'm doing this because i know i'm getting older.
Then,what are you waiting for?
Thing will be yours if it is yours.
Of course,you're not allowed to despise the effort that should be done.
Laugh like a lunatic,cry like a ghost.
be true to yourself and you will be true to the others.

Shhhh. i always remember what MR PERBA commented about me.
I am so proud to have it. ;D
I will take it with me forever,no matter where i am.
I secretly miss somebody in my heart.
You are so lucky if you know you're the one!
:D :D :D



Cause when you decided to take another point,you will be really happy.

This time,i wont screw my trials.
So do you.
Good luck guys. :D

It lasts long

You wont easily give up when you made up your mind.

=D

i know i do.
we know we do.

because i'm always there,dont scare.
i will give you plenty of courage.
and also confidence.
cherish what we have,no stress no unhappiness.

I LOVE YOU ;D

IMY

What would you do if you think that you're an obstacle?
i know i'm too much la.

The uncertainty makes me feel insecured.
yet its so challenging.
everyone faces this but i just scare of it.
Nah.u will call me a silly if u know me. =P

Had very bad mood yesterday morning and that results in a "fuck u" to him.
i apologised already but i still feel very bad about it.
i'm very sorry sorry sorry.
i know he will never get angry so i just scold.
i always bully people like that.

I hate taking bus.it wastes alot of time.........................
why should i reject when people offers to send me home? :D
especially during SPM exams.
and i just couldnt sleep on my schol bus every morning
it actually tortures me. One hour on bus every morning,without doing anything.
WTH?!?!?!?!
if i could fly to school.if i own a driver.if i caould drive myself. =.=
IF I COULD FALL ASLEEP ON BUS JUST LIKE DE OTHERS.

sometimes i dare not to deny.
avoid is de best way to prevent mood swing.
but facing it makes me stronger.
and i will not need to avoid anymore in de future
i know i can,so do you.

49. I hate this number.



强迫别人接受你自以为是的好意，
也是一种自私不是吗？

也许我不是第一，但我是唯一. =)

from God,its a gift.

It sucks.

I just feel like scolding something to make myself lighter.
so that i could fly,in my dream.
Its becoming useless and useless
And all the while,i've been deceiving myself.
I dont know which way actually suits me and i just couldnt find out.
Look down on myself,thats why people looks down on me.
my brain is not functioning well
perhaps i have used de useful storage place for useless stuffs?
i wonder.
do u know that?

I hate that when she comments on it.
i find myself ugly whenever she talks about it.SUCKS.
sometimes i just cant control.
so what is happening now?
perhaps i'm not de one.ummm.
Dont deny her ability on having her own opinion.u dont have de right.
bcos she's always too right.
But we're just not de same.

And she called me a silly.i hope i'm one.
sha ren always you sha fu. =)
i dont believe anyone who says that they never feel insecured.
its just a matter of time.
i dont believe things like that cant be compared.
U're de one who neglected it and claimed that its pointless.
i dont believe u will get de good outcome when u're unwilling to work on it.
Good outcome isnt just a gift from de God.
i dont believe people love u when u hate yourself.
But sometimes u cant stop it either.
i dont believe i can study without falling asleep.
although i've done it successfully several times before.
BECAUSE I'M GETTING OLDER.

I have a dream.
just one.
I wish i could drive,RIGHT NOW. =.=
i do feel regret since i promised my mum not to go for driving lesson until i finished my SPM exams.damn it.
i feel like looking at birds so much now.
Ish.

loved =)

一朝被蛇咬,十年怕草蛇.



那,十年以后呢?



"When the world is scolding you,
i'm still believe in you.
When the world leaves you,
i'm still standing by your side."

Cant finish studying.keep on sleeping only can? XDD

Sparkling eyes :D

我想把所有东西都吐出来 =.=


大家都被骗得团团转.
好人坏人要怎么分？

最近流行五十笑一百吗？
怎么大家都在玩这样的游戏。

她说我是狗，一只特殊的贵宾犬 =)





我很幸福，
有一群默默支持我的家人和朋友。


我知道，这是一份不简单的礼物。
一份很有意义的礼物 :)

its everything. =)

No more sleepless nights. :))
I know u meant it. :D

I seriously feel like meeting de pervert again and bring him to jail.
he needs a doctor.
chinese,20++ years old.
he wears a beige-coloured cap,dark green shirt and beige shorts.
girls you need to be careful
i saw him on de overhead bridge at plaza pelangi.
Mummy laughed when she heard this.
"why didnt u laugh at him to fail his abnormal desire?" =.=
"do u think i can do that when i never see that before?"
"Hahahahahahaha.............."

Cute mummy indeed?
=.=

btw i'm proud of myself.at least i didnt scream ok.
i never made him feel satisfied ok.
Zzzzzz.pretended i saw nothing.ish.
luckily ah bai was not with me.she would just SCREAMMMMM.
what a bad day.
#%#$%&##$%$&

I'm just sorry.
And i hope that you get it.
That's not what i meant.

SORRY.
SORRY.
SORRY.

I dont know what is going on.
dont blame me,please.
You dont know how much stress i'm going through.
if we have the chance to cherish this once more.
Dont say that i'm always able to adapt.
Because i'm not,i'm just like you.
nobody wants that,i'm hoping things will turn out better.
i know what exactly she felt.cause i'm undergoing the same situation.
She understands.i wont let her know.
Pull me out of this complicated world.
i wish i will never need to face that.
TELL ME,IT WILL NOT COME.

Perhaps i made up all this.
Who to be blame?

Look into the mirror.
now i think you've done something very wrong.
but you chosed to be yourself.
UNLUCKY.
I'm willing to give up,if you insisted.




咄咄逼人的自己，我也讨厌。

dk

I dont know what else i can do.
I'm out of solutions.

Its weird.
weird to the core.
Nobody deserves it.
i know.time proves everything.
i hope time can cure.
no matter what it is.
God bless us,all of us.

Thanks God.

Perhaps you're wondering.I do feel like i've found my angel.
She's here,from the God.
HE shines my day and she's his daughter.
I am,too. :)

I'm seriously proud of ong jing kai.
He's number 1 brother in the world.
He is as kind as me,as beautiful as me xD
i know i trust him lotss,and i'm just so comfortable being with him.
He may not be good in something,he may have done something wrong.
but he's still the best brother ever in the world.
He makes me feel that i'm loved and cared so much.
He treats me as his girlfriend i guess? :DD
u wont know how sweet it is.i always smile reading his msg.
Although its just a very simple msg.
But it shows plenty of pure love,especially for me. :)

Little boys invited me.
but i'm so sorry cause i feel a little bit awkward.
But i'm true happy when my brother told me that. HEHE.

I know i'm no longer tied up by the mistake.
I've forgiven myself successfully.
Thanks god that it happens,and i've got the chance to do what i wanted to.
I'm becoming braver and braver,and i'll be myself since now on.
No fear no guilt. A new me is born. :)
Its just love between us. Its just that simple.
I'm confident right now,and i know its all fate.
I dont expect much but i hope that we all realise time is no longer much.
its coming,de seperate moment.

I am just too lazy for studying.
i wish i'm lying on a field,study with nature.
they are so real,so eternal. :)

Family love is great.bathing inside,i will never come out. =P

I'm happy that i have made new friends. :)
everybody is nice.everybody has the right to be forgiven.
You know it.
Have faith in yourself because everything will be real alright.

小礼物

我今天竟然一边走路一边笑 =D

两个小帅哥很开心地边走边谈足球。
进门刷卡时发现我的存在，
“诶，要不要开门给你进来？”
“你要进来吗？”
哈哈。不用，谢谢。
这是今天的礼物 :)

韵璇小姐说那个是归属感。哈哈。


Its a new life.am new everyday.
HE is the perfect one.
I believe that its fate. its not just coincidence.
Let's pray.i'm looking forward to meeting her up every thursday!
Be true to yourself,i know its uncontrollable. :)







缺乏自信会造成伤害，过度自信何尝不是？
=DD

=)

我们有同一个约定
我们有同一个梦想 =)

I'm smiling,
awaiting for my bright future.

A brand new life. =DD

pray hard

I pray everyday.

Do you know what is de feeling?

简单的定义是什么？

不难吗？

那是最好的笑容。

那不是我。

那不是我。




我不是这样的人。
我很在意面子，他的我的。
不需要伪装
我只想要做我自己
我们不一样，
我相信一切都是注定的。
不同的个体，思想本来就不一样。

玩了一天，
我知道那不是我。

point

Yes.

Dont u feel that?
He and her.
They're so MATCH.
I feel like going-between them and make them together.
Hehee. I enjoyed doing this kind of job. =D
Guess yourself,or maybe soon u will find out one day.

I had a dream.
De conclusion is,i need to encourage him.
=) although its weird,i will do that if its necessary.
HAHA.
I 'm kind of tired.
I finally know why i'm so addicted to facebook.
I'll be back to de normal once i get it through.
when de day comes,everything is great.

I dont suit.
I'm just very ordinary.
My stomach feels hot,very hot.but i never eat spicy food.
Good that i cant eat anything.
SLIM DOWN.
I'm happy because i might be skipping school! Woohoo. ;D
WTH.have been anti-ing panadol for such a long time.
After rolling on my bed for 2 hours last night,i gave up.
so ISH right?
and i ate 2 biji somemore to prevent high-fever.
=.=
Good job.
That's why i was late for bus.i never watch world cup hor. =(

Nah la i know i'm being naggy.
I'm addicted to COFFEE! =D

Linesman refree也是人所以他们也会犯错
男人请息怒. :)

Chih you.

=)

Mama said,i'm so lucky to have kind friends.
I always have de chance to be fetched to home.
How nice it is? XDD
Thanks those who fetched me before.
I'll be like so kind too in de future! Hehe.

Not special,but today was great.
I saw boy boy again!
I was like sooo happy.
But he was shivering throughout de journey.poor thing.
Next time i'll buy a shirt for him. =D
Or maybe i'll hug him tight and give him warmth.
wait for me,i will and i can do it one day. X)

I'm not dong shi de nv ren.
To mr liau and mrs liau. :)






Anything.
I like challenge. I dont scare.
U will find out one day.
Because u know its useless.
who says girls cannot scold bad words?
who says girls cannot smoke?
who says girls cannot play games?
who says girls cannot be a flirt?
Just dont care,do anything as u like.

Remember,You are WHAT you say.
Do it,then i will prove to u. =)
Dont look down on me.


Dont hide,my love. =DDDDD

Hurry hurry.

=DD
i know how to push it away,finally.
Congratulations!
I miss holidays.
Just one more week,please?

I've done something i never did in this SSI school.
I think i'm doing de right thing.
My papa supports me you know.
And even my tuition teacher. Hehee.

I hope i'm still your friend.
No matter how long we didnt talk,didnt smile to each other.
I care of it a lot.






TIME FLIES.

Again and again.

你了解我,你会知道的.

他很棒
她在他身边悄悄长大了.
我知道我不够资格
但是,我珍惜一切你给我的爱.
谢谢你的体谅,谢谢.
这样不求回报的爱,你可以不要拿走吗?

我讨厌不停开冷气机的家伙.
下雨天,
你很热吗?
一个人的力量有限.每个人都这么说.
就算我一个人没有办法救地球,至少我不会伤害她.
她是你的妈妈,被你完全忘记的妈妈.
你们不缺乏知识.
你们到底缺乏什么?
或许你想哈哈大笑,或许你觉得我是神经病.
随便你.
那又怎么样呢?
我问心无愧,
我扮演好自己的每一个角色,
我尽力了.



I told HIM,i wont hurt people who care of me.
I told HIM,i wont do what my love ones dont like.
I told HIM,i think before i do everything.
And HE said,good job my little girl.

my heart will go on.

Screwed up my chemistry papers.
I know,its such a disgrace to Mr.lim.
well alright i know what to do.



I have no more tears to drop.

God gives me strength.
I've started to talk to HIM since i feel that HE's with me.
I hope everything is fine with HIM by my side.
She says,be more contented,then you will be happier.
i know but its hard.
ONG LI YIN is just way too greedy.
maybe i have get used it.de marks that i never like.
so i can still laughed and smiled. =)

If the world is going to end soon,what will u do first?

Dont ever regret.

That's really good that i went for de last stjohn camp in my life.
Um. Its great to be a senior. xDD
HAHAHAHA.
Youngsters, soon its your turn.
see,i only cooked in my last year camping.
Clap clap please. :P

One day when you look back at your life
would you be regret on some certain things?




YES.
But definitely,you shouldn't think so.
because it was you who made your life like this.

=DD

Tomorrow is a new day.
A new day for me, and for you. =)

So what?

:DDDD
Today was a great one!
So i'm giving u a big big smile here! :)
Thanks the boyfriend. ;)

I hope there's no dust on my lulu guiness and green boxes.
I want them back after de holidays.i dont care xD
Too bad no nice photo la. Lol.
): holiday is soon ending. Very sad.



p/s: I tak suka her. Not my type.

good luck.

THANK YOU.


:DDD

Had a nice day altho we ended up cancelling desaru's plan.
Or else i would have met bai.
HAHA. Was missing ong li hui when we were playing around.
Couldnt bear to leave this home after this spm year.
Can i just stay at home and study a? :(
I'll be really really homesick ok.
hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm. Aiyo.
Nitez peeps.
I'll definitely have a sweet dream later. :)

So sweeeeeeeeeeeet. XD

Wooooooohoo.
I'm feeling so sweet right now. ;DD
Its like i'm having 2 boyfriends at de same time!
HAHAHAHAHA.
The boyfriend,dont be jealous nah.
De one who made me feeling so sweet is the ong jing kai. XD
World cup is starting today and of cos guys are mad about it.
And of cos,watching world cup alone is not so fun right?
I can understand duh. ;)

1.45pm
"Can u go back alone a?"
"Sure, why not??"

5.45pm
(miss call)
*teng ling*
"Can u sit wen xiang's car later? Reply me asap."
O.O Arent u having tuition? Naughty boy.
"Wen xiang is not having tuition. I can go back alone,nonid to worry laa!"

6.45pm
"Daddy mummy is reaching jb soon,they can fetch u on time."
Again, O.O
"Even if they dont reach i still can walk alone."

7.04pm
(2 miss call)
*teng ling*
"Daddy mummy will be late le. U take taxi back ok?"
"NVM,dont worry i can really walk back alone.Msg u la once i reach."
"ok,be careful."

8.00pm
"Reached ade?"
5 minutes later. "Yes reached"

Owwwww can u see that? How sweet he is?
I felt i'm loved and cared so much.
Shouldnt be worry so much laa i'm a big and brave girl.
I know how to run and scream when i meet pervert. Or pervertss. XD
Woohoo. Is he my boyfriend ah?
HAHAHAHAHA.
Yes la i know world cup is not more important than me. Heehee.
Forgive u for leaving me alone and went to have fun with those lil boys. ;D

And u know,my beloved aunty called me n said,
"Ah yin ah,we go fetch u when u reach."
O.O noneed laaa,i'm brave enough and i dont scare. Haha.
"But its so dark out there."
Dont dont i'll be more worry if u come out!
"Then u be careful alright?"
"Yes madam!" weeeee. Feeling so sweet!
But de cutest and de most beautiful ahma in de world,
took an umbrella and walked up along de street.
OMG. I've nearly hugged her but,i pai seh at de end.
Ahma u shouldnt have come out.
"Aiyo i'm worry that later u scare mah by walking alone."
:))))) I dont scare,i'm protected by much of lovesss.
Heehee. MUAX MUAX MUAX MUAX MUAX.
Well i might really muax u all one day,just wait laa.
When i cant afford de so much lovesss anymore. XDD

I love my hair right now. ;D
I love bai's boy boy!!
How cute he is and how shy he is?
It was de first time i touched a dog n followed by a dog!
Huge improvement for me a. Hahaha.
He came to lick my foot when i was sitting on de sofa.
"What's de taste? Salty, sour or SWEET?" XDD
HAHAHAHAHA. Too bad he couldnt answer.but he's so scare of me. T.T
I'm missing him ade. Ade ade ade. I want a shy puppy too!
Err.when i have $$ and time to accompany him. Haha.
I miss bai's mama's soup! I've get addicted once after i drank that!
I sensed de love inside de dishes wei. Same as my ahma's. HOHO.
A big thank you for bai bai family. :)

I haven finish my story le.xD
Met up with lynette and that was great.
I'm proud to be malaysian.altho our street is that clean. :P
oppps. so sorry that i couldnt rmb de other girl who is also sweet and kind.
They were so sincere ok. LOL.
Yes MALAYSIAN boleh. :D arent u proud? heehee.
Well finish up everything. :)





Loving my hair and my everything. ;P

short hair :(

Dont feel like doing homework.although i know i memang need to.
Grrrrrr.

I love sleeping.
And i know why u love that too. :)
Someone is sleeping so much.
Haih.





U know,i'm pulling my hair everyday n night.

The 2nd one

"Bcos i just couldnt cut de rabbit's stomach!"

If i could be a doctor without doing it,maybe then.
Rabbits le. OMG.
Katak i still dont mind. ;D
Err seriously i dont know.
But i think he's going to let me know soon.
About my future. :)
I seriously love having mr.foo's tuition.
U can see bright bright light towards your future.
HAHAHAHA.

What so upset?
U can have my vitamin O.
;DD
Nvm about it,smile as how u do. :)

Released? :)

And after that,it can no longer make me angry and sad.
Well,let bygones be bygones.
Facing it with a smiley face.
I know everything is alright.
;)

But too bad i had a bad hair cut.
Cant wait for my hair to grow longer.
Is there anything can make my hair get longer in a short period?
Vitamin O. XDD

Take care

"If there were 2 family members passed away in the same year,
then soon it comes the third one."



Right.
It proved that he's right.
Goodbye grand-grandma.

U know it cuts me.

Went shopping with jiali today.
It was awesome as she always shines my day. :)
Stopped by de dirty seaside.
And i screamed. Quietly.
Owh dear. There are lotss of people there
And i prefer green green grassssss.

I've been asking myself,what can i do actually?
I'm really lack of solutions right now.
Seems nothing can help.
It means nothing. It just popped out accidentely.
Didnt mean it.
I'm sorry that i made this so.
Things wouldnt be like this if i didnt go and disturb.
Btw it cuts me.

I arent perfect.
I learnt to be.
God knows.

No more nightmares. :)

"你哭了?"
"没有."
.....有什么好哭的呢?

其实我不难过也不生气
只是觉得很惊讶,发现原来就是这样.
天生敏感其实没什么不好.
你不用说,我可以猜到.而且相当准确.
这样多好,省却你解释的麻烦. :)))

我不是完美.
但是我为自己感到骄傲.
我会永远快乐,你知道.




"你嘴上爱抱怨,你就成为怨女.你嘴上爱耍贱,就会成为贱嘴.
你老是说色情笑话,你就会成为色迷迷的怪叔叔.
虽然,我们知道你骨子里可能并不是这样的人.

You are what you say." -------------------------------蔡康永

I CAN READ YOUR MIND.

I know de real me in your heart.

Finally, i was in awesome attire and went shopping with my mama!
But so bad there was only a pair of harem pants which satisfied my eyes. O.O
(That harem pants will definitely satisfied ong li hui's eyes too!)
XDDD
I hope i could go for more nice things.
Bcos they make me happy! ;D

I dont like holidays as much as last time.
It has nothing special actually.
I'm looking forward to live a new life.
And time is actually passing very fast. ;)

我第一次被人家嫌麻烦.
感觉很新鲜,哈哈.
我想我不麻烦,至少在那样的情况下不会.
我相信我不是麻烦的女人.
其实主动和被动就差很远了.
距离很远,感觉不一样.
其实主动也不是坏事.
或许会有意想不到的收获.

有些东西其实不需要改变.
可是它会在你意想不到的情况下悄悄变形.
也许是朝更好的方向.
如果大家都可以懒惰,那么就一起懒惰吧.
如果大家都懒惰,事情会变得多么糟糕?
还是勤劳的好? ;D

当天使很累,不如,试试当魔鬼吧!

To be a nurse

我要当护士
我想你会支持我 :)