Don't flirt with me.

A friend of mine is struggling in something he can never get back.
I told him,
The best way to put down your past is to think about it over and over again, face it and talk about it.
There will be a time that you don't feel like thinking about it anymore.
This feeling comes from your heart, not your brain.
All the best brother. :)

I don't get it when someone who has a girlfriend or boyfriend can still flirt with the others.
Maybe this helps to release tense & perhaps it refreshes you.
I don't want to be the girl you flirt with when you already have your girlfriend.
I care about her feeling when you don't care.
God is watching, no matter what you're doing.
Scold me for being too serious, i am kinda serious.
Since she is good to you, be nice to her, not only in front of her.
Thank you.

Had very strange dream these few nights.
I hope everything is, and will be okay.
God bless you! :D

弱点?

我不每天喝咖啡
虽然我是真的喜欢咖啡的味道
除了考试或者夜里睡不好, 我喝咖啡都只是因为想念它的味道.
有个朋友说咖啡是功能饮料, 我默默地不赞成.
如果只是因为思念而喝, 怎么可以说它是功能饮料?
我不每天喝咖啡, 尤其是假期的时候
我不愿意对咖啡成瘾.
如果每天的精力来源是咖啡, 那我会有一点瞧不起自己.



我常常想, 如果我很放心很彻底地依赖一个人一件事物,
有一天我会不会有一无所有的感觉.
毕竟没有任何东西是永恒
除非我依赖的是家人的爱.
但是过多的依赖, 一旦在你看不见触不及对方的时候,情绪难免崩溃.
我不每天喝咖啡,其实只是因为我不愿意依赖
有个可以依赖和依靠的人或事物的确很幸福
我不反对或瞧不起任何依赖的朋友
只是我不希望自己这么做.
一旦依赖成了习惯,那会变成你的弱点.很可怕的弱点.
而你又需要多少时间和精力收起那份依赖, 继续自强不息?
那是太大的考验.



如果你有一点时间, 读一读这本书
我原本不喜欢作者为这本评论书取的有深深贬低马来西亚意味的书名
读完之后的确不开心.
可是很多东西我真的没办法反驳.
大家明明知道,却置身事外的态度,其实和佛山小悦悦事件没什么分别
大家是年轻人, 大家都有能力改变这个国家的命运.

如果你要说一个人的力量改变不了什么,
谢谢你的借口.
我没法反驳也真的不愿意听你的解释.
让那些就算只有孤身一人也愿意拼搏的人改变世界吧!

Yes I had an awesome C!

Merry Christmas! :D

Its sweet to have Christmas celebration all years, sweetie Eunice tham! :)


Bai & I made this surprise successfully!
Look at what we cooked!

Er I actually took this to show off to a very cute guy. Lol.
Happy birthday Eunice, my sweetie! God bless you :)

And finally i went to Universal Studio.
It rained whole day but yes, it was romantic.
We had to stick together to share the umbrella.
And i want to say, it won't be so memorable if it was a sunny day. Haha!



the first photo of the day :)

3D Transformer is awesome, the Mummy is fabulous (which was the only one i screamed louder and longer than ah Bai did), Water World is amazing, Monster rock is excellent!
Fyi, Monster Rock caught my eyes from the starting till the end, as there is a charming vampire. Right Mr Wei v?
Lol.
Oh we had a great day! :D

I love Bai's boy boy.
I know he likes me, he will miss me!

wtf

When everyone is moaning that their result sucks, i can't even moan.
I can't celebrate either.
What a depressed Christmas. F.

I don't know why i am feeling very bad.
This result and inefficient school system totally fml.
Even though i had spent an awesome night with miss eleen sim.
I am sorry i think i didn't show very good face.
Thank you i love you.

Its like so 'urgh' when people who concerns about me telling me what i should go for & what i should not.
Thanks i appreciate it a lot and i knew this is my problem that i am easily influenced by some certain people.
but is it true that everyone has your thinking or your mind set, that what you're suffering will definitely face by me in the future?
Its even more irritating when you judge me by your selfish thinking, that women should not do this and that.
I definitely know that you're just trying to be nice.
I can't blame you on this.
but for the time being, I only need your support, not any judgement.
Because it has been hard, i know it will be, too.

I didn't know why, i am glad but it somehow messed up my heart.
I thank you to all of you.

I have so many things undone.
I made myself into this moment. -.-

You don't miss something doesn't mean you need to forget,
just like you apologies doesn't mean you are wrong.
You just want everything to turn out better,
either yours or the others' feeling.

Xoxo

Goodnight everyone! :D
Nah I am in pretty good mood so I can't help blogging!
Met up with my ah bai and we caught a movie today, which was the first time I wore a 3D spectacles.
:D
It's perfectly great as it was a Christmas movie.
U know I love Christmas cartoon.
And it was with ah bai!
Lol.
Forgive me as I really feel like showing off when I talk of bai.
Thank god. :)

And of course, mr Andy is awesome.
I thank god for sending me these awesome friends.
How could I not happy thinking of them?
I used to sadly admit that I have no very close male friend.
But thank god I have one since... Few months ago? :)
Just, u know, it's perfectly alright to do anything or to show any behavior in front of them.
Like my family! Hehee!

And hey, miss eleen sim & Eunice tham are coming back home!
Which makes me even happier!
Welcome back my love I have been waiting for u two! <3

Little boy left for the school trip for almost a week, which means I have to wake up early in the morning to send even little boy to his badminton training. Oh how sad.
Should have gone to bed!

I have another good news which I feel shy sharing here!
Lol!
Goodnight!

Give me an awesome C!

Hoping that i would have an awesome Christmas.

I don't know what to say, i am lazy.

A friend of mine said, every girls turn into a bitch for a reason.
I guess, so do guys.
so, why can't you save yourself up & turn yourself into someone better?
You can change yourself, if people can change you.
Its just all about love. :)

I'm kind of lazy to deal with relationship, friendship & any other things that require my time & effort.
I am just too lazy to make any effort.
I don't even feel like thinking or taking the lead for a conversation.
so if I am with you, forgive me for not talking non-stop, like how i used to be.
perhaps, I lost my mind too when i am listening to you.

I am kind of lazy to bear with people & things which i don't really like too, for now.
Bearing is something great and if you can make it, there's no anymore big problem for you.
but its too tiring for me now, or maybe, i want a change.
I am not going to be as easy as before, give you a smile when i am not ok with you.
I might do so, but its because i am lazy to deal with you, its not because i am afraid of losing your trust or your fond towards me.
I know its necessary to build a poker face sometimes, especially after you have no choice but to enter the adults' world.
but i am just so lazy. So if you care, i'm sorry.
I guess this is some kind of 'special' period, i know i will definitely come back to what i have and i can do some time after. :)

So, don't worry la!

Oh yeah, i am home, and of course, nowhere is better than home! ;D

I see an incredible me.

Received Mumy's call from home before final started.
"Don't be too tense, just try your best.
Its good to get good grades, its okay too for not getting them.
I am worried that if you're getting mad one day."

One year ago when i heard this, i burst out crying.
but, not for now.
It was touching and i know all my parents want is my happiness.
I appreciate everything but i know, its not all i want.
I know i can get everything if i try hard, really hard.
I don't say a thing if i missed out an A or 2 As, i knew its all my fault.
I despise myself when i excuse myself for not achieving the best.
what else i can do if i can't even handle the stress on me.
And i believe there is always a way, i can overcome everything.

I accept your excuse, not mine.
You said i have been too harsh to myself, i say i want it.
:)

After all, i enjoy sweetness that comes after the bitterness!

Goodnight!

Find myself so irritating.

I don't feel like studying, don't feel like studying.
Lalala.

Oh yea, I was not just curious about what subconscious is.
I meant, i am interested in it, i want to take it serious, like its going to be my job.
but God knows how i am going to start.
God knows what i am going to pursue.
God knows what i am going to feed myself in the future.

I think its all a dream.
Wake me up & don't ever let me fall asleep again.

没有标题

有个朋友亲手做了一个小手工送给我,是个可以穿在原子笔盖上的装饰.
是个榴莲的形状.
我问她为什么送我榴莲,她要我自己想象.
后来从她口中证实,在她眼里的我其实很像榴莲.
我有一些些郁闷,觉得浑身是刺实在不是什么好东西.
我不知道我的内在是不是也和榴莲一样:
有人很喜欢,吃不到的时候会很想念. 也有人不敢碰,甚至敬而远之.
我不敢问那位朋友.
老实说,我真的不愿意承认.
如果真的如我所想,那我是不是其实很难以接近.
也有一些不近人情.
再加上长满刺的外表,我的天啊.
是不是应该随和一点?

其实很多时候我觉得自己格格不入
跟很多人比较起来我很无趣.
就算有天马行空的想法,有可以负荷刺激的心脏,
我还是很循规蹈矩.
这就是为什么我不屑永远不敢冒险的人.
因为这个不屑,我才不会太循规蹈矩,太浪费我的心脏和想法.
至少我知道在我心底深处,有个很勇敢,很渴望冒险,很愿意抛开面子的小鬼.
有一天当我不再需要是爸爸妈妈的乖孩子的时候,我可以不循规蹈矩.
当然,我希望这不是借口.

我不喜欢浪费时间.
所以常常很多时候,我知道我让身边的人很有压迫感.
我不喜欢浪费食物.
在我盘里的,属于我的,就是我的责任.
就好像你会好好照顾你的家人,你的东西,你的感觉一样.
况且浪费食物会为你带来什么好处?
我想这些是我身上长满刺的原因.
我从来没有尝试过很疯狂的游戏,没有做过很幼稚无聊的举动.
我也从来不知道自己是不是可以胜任.
我希望自己可以有很多不同层面,用不同的自己跟不同的人相处,
用不同的心理去理解每一个人.

我不想小气,不想无聊,不想爱面子,不想像有强迫症.
只是你越浪费,我越要把每一粒米饭都吃完.
只是你越幼稚,想要考验我的度量,我越生气.
可能大家做一些事情都没有理由,都只是跟着感觉走.
我还是相信每一个人都有潜意识,都有会驱使自己做某一件事的动力.
我只是想要知道这每一件事情的背后,到底是哪一种潜意识.

Talk to me.

Damage of my phone's speaker made me a paranoid.

I blame myself for eating too much, studying too little, wasting time on something meaningless & sleeping too much, almost everyday.

but seriously, i now can find happiness easier more than ever.
I am not giving myself too much stress. :)

When she says she has too much to be done, increase her oxytocin level.
Talk to her & listen to her more, if you are the one she loves.

Bi- is the best!

I'm like so tired after every Tuesday class. -.-
I force myself to sleep every Monday night, worrying that if i don't get enough sleep, i can't focus in class.
So i end up staying awake after few hours lying on bed.
Everything is done, i am sleepy, but i can't sleep.
I think something is wrong in me.

It is unfair.
How do you know you are actually homosexual, heterosexual or bisexual?
Your sex judge you.
And the world doesn't really allow you to have your own choice.
How many persons out there are actually hiding this secret & spent their miserable life with someone they don't love deeply?
Just be brave, get what you want, and this is not a shame.
I believe there will be a moment that same sex marriage is legal worldwide.
at least, don't forbid people of same sex from falling in love.
nobody wants to be a shame (which is judged by some people), nobody wants to be abnormal.
God makes them, so why could you despise them?




Ellen DeGeneres & Portia de Rossie

Sometimes you get something that your partner of opposite sex can never do for you, and you get it from someone of your same sex.
Sometimes a hug from an opposite sex is complicated, a hug from your same sex is simple & most importantly, you know it gives you all you need.

Lol, i always think once you're in love with someone of your sex, you don't want to leave.
They always understand you better.
Of course, you understand them too.
So what is wrong with that? :)

I sound like a lesbian? LOL.

You are.

Just before time, Happy birthday Ho Hsien Ying. :)




This girl is awesome.
How awesome?
She proved me that i can be a little girl at times, after a few months we knew each other.
She loses control at times, so i can be a big girl in another way.
When she says 'Don't bother because it doesn't matter', i trust her.
She is true, and cute.

She loves sausages by the way, so she ended up get a birthday cake like this.

Hee :) yep, those standing behind the white chocolate are sausages.
It actually tasted so nice, Tiramisu and cheesy sausages! :D
And she has been longing for 18th, so here it is!
Happy birthday, lovess!

:)
I knew wanting a couple to break up is something really evil.
I never really wanted to do this.
but i admit i am seriously happy that, finally you're back!
I did think that she actually snapped you away from me.
You are like my big bro, once and always.
I will get a promise from you, no matter who your girlfriend is in the future, please, she can't get jealous of me.
and finally, you are back.
Those time that you gave me a cool face, a wave instead of a smiling face & a Hi are all gone.
Don't let it ever come back.
I can't take it.
I am sure you didn't know how sad i was.
But finally, you are back!

Sorry i didn't mean to nag, i do not know what to do most of the time.
I appreciate everything, but we want something different for the future.
And i am just not like you, i can't be as easy as you, you know i am not good in being not so serious.
I am sorry, just i am sorry.
I am trying not to screw them up, and at the same time not to forget what i promised myself at first.
Sorry for not giving much as what i received, i knew it.
I just need some time, some space, perhaps.
And i thank you guys a lot, for making so much fun for me.
And too, squeezed out all my first times. Thank you.
:)

You know who you are. :)

骗自己

以前我总是觉得,每个人做每一件事,都有一个目的,一个理由.
可是其实很多时候,每个人都只是跟着感觉走
就是让自己快乐.
我学着不去思考太多,不想象每个人都和我一样.

中学时的纪念册,一个朋友写了一些话让我生气了好久.
"每一个人做一件事都有他的理由.有些人选择表达出来,有些人选择不.
有时候不需要这么精明,骗自己,也当是为别人的行为找借口.
相信最重要.要互相信任,并百分之百相信那个很相信你的人."
那时候的我只看见"骗自己"三个字, 没有好好思考这位朋友想要表达的意思.
有些东西如果想要持久,适当的时候应该懵懂一点,也应该同意不完美就是完美.

我当时在想,如果每一个人在遭遇不平时都欺骗自己,那自欺欺人的那个人会越来越懦弱,还是越来越快乐?
你选择骗自己,又有几个人可以完全忘记,然后若无其事?
那么这种必须欺骗自己的情况会不会一次又一次地发生?
而且这位朋友不了解实情,她怎么可以批评我,好像我什么努力都没有尝试过?
她怎么知道我从来没有尝试过欺骗自己,只是我没有成功过?

现在我已经不生气.
也庆幸自己没有接受这个善意的劝告.
欺骗别人违反道德,欺骗自己又尚且不是?
有些假装只会让事情越演越烈,又怎么会有美好的结果呢.
或许为别人找借口是善意.
不需要这么精明也是生活中应该紧记的.
我由始至终不愿意接受骗自己这样的,保护任何东西的方法.
我勇敢,所以我选择面对.
虽然很多时候人选择欺骗自己,是在不得已的情况下.

我只是想说,"骗自己"虽然指标,但不治本.
多年以后,当你勇敢了,自己掀开回忆,你会后悔花了这么多时间和精力掩盖一切,欺骗自己.
而且在欺骗自己的同时,你欺骗了多少身边关心你的人.
只有勇敢面对,就算再难过,总是会雨过天晴.
至少,你不会看不起你自己.

Another flower!

So, its Joe yee's 18th birthday!
I can't celebrate for her on time so just.. in advance.
I wanted to do something crazy something we can only do at the age of 18.
but, nobody is willing to help.
So i gave up with disappointment.
don't ask me what plan i had made, i am so ashamed to tell since i didn't carry it out successfully. -.-
Anna's kitchen in jb was the cafe wanted. Btw i took 1 hour to travel from Ksl city to the cafe. I drove. -.-
Ok but at the end i was hugged so tightly with lots of appreciation la! :D
Thanks for coming to Li yang and my little brother, good guys deserve good result in SPM & STPM! Haha!


The one & only one in the world. But they said mine is nicer! Lol.


Her happy face X)








My beauties. Bai & Eunice.


Before wearing high heels. With Li yang & Jing kai.


After wearing high heels. LOL


Wearing the heels we gave her!





"Xie xie ni. Today is really a big surprise. Both of them are two of the important guys in my life and both of you are the most important friends in my life. I feel touched. I love you. :)"

:D

就好像，施比受更有福。

有些时候，你很羡慕别人的生命中，总是有贵人出现，并出手相助。
贵人也需要伯乐，常常你总是在一段时日以后才发现原来这个曾经在你生命中走过的，
就是你的贵人。
不管那个人付出多少，教会你多少，你由始至终不懂得珍惜和感激，他要怎么成为你的贵人？
谁规定贵人是那个为你带来大富大贵的人。
谁规定贵人是带你登上事业顶峰的人。
谁又规定贵人是让你一生一世不愁吃穿的人。

贵人往往是你身边，让你累积一点点生活经验，让你慢慢成长的人。

你的人生会有多少贵人？

每个人都希望自己遇到贵人，那么该由谁来成为别人的贵人？

Eat up my laziness, then swallow it.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAREST MOMMY!
-with lotsa love. :)

I'm not home due to the irritating public transport.
Travelling is not awesome at all.
Fml.

I'm lazy to do laundry, cooking & ironing my clothes.
I just want to sleep all day. -.-
Rotting, come and save me please my superman.

I hope i too have my baby or honey or whatever, like Princess F do.
So i will have something to look forward to everyday i climb up from bed.
Sleeping is not as awesome as what i think.
how good it is to not sleeping but i am still energetic.












DEC please come!!

Hot blood!

因为[那些年，我们一起追的女孩]的播映，我读了九把刀的原著和其他几本书。
我没有九把刀莫名而来的无厘头自信（依照本人所说），但我有他的热血。
只不过我的热血不如他的沸腾。
好像生活中的美好，只要你有自信和热忱，就通通都会来到。
然后你用你的热血翻炒，这些美好就会香喷喷地，连你周遭的人都会闻得到。
大概这是为什么我和大家一样都喜欢九把刀。

白小姐早早和我约好要看这部电影，我还觉得这么浪漫的电影怎么不是和我的他跟她的他一同欣赏。
看了三次都没有成功看完的[那些年，我们一起追的女孩]小说，
以前总是会觉得自己的更精彩，现在因为电影上档，终于一鼓作气看完。
回味书中情节的时候，我灵光乍现。
任何关于青春和回忆这档事，白都希望有我在她的身边。
这是多么感人的事！
不要说我臭屁，还有谁比我更了解白小姐！
哈哈哈！

青春一去不回头，虽然我蛮期待看见自己脸上的第一条皱纹，
我还是希望我的青春可以长久一点！
当然，我的智慧会随着皱纹增多越来越增长！
谁说老女人不漂亮？
:D

Everyone is unique in this world.

SEE! This is the best boiled egg i have ever eaten! :D
Okk i admit i accidentally made it, but it's nice!
The egg yolk is not really boiled, uhm its like 3/4 boiled?
I will make one for you. Tell me you like it.
Lol.

He said when you dream of somebody, it means that that somebody is actually missing you.
I bet you're missing me too much recently.

Don't let me know that you love me if you share love all around.
Thank you.

Oopss, its Nov.

Aww what to do when your neighbour is cooking something that smells so freaking good at 11pm?
I know, Fml.
Don't worry, i won't walk to her and get a share from her.
Don't worry.

Irritate me, then i will grow better.
Hah, i soon can get something out that makes your saliva drooling non-stop!

Life is so bored.
I can't wait for dec to come, I have started to save $ for my 2011 dec!
Got to spend the whole month with my soon-finishing-As-Bai! :D


I hope you always know what i mean.

When people doesn't ask for your opinion, don't voice it.
Its just annoying.
So, i shut up.

I'm always with you.

:)


-.-

Hello.
Imbalance. -.-
The best way to vent my emo-ness is to talk.
Thank you i knew i bother you so damn a lot.

First day when i came into my room, i "WOW".
I whispered in my ears, 'don't you think its like living in jail?'
I whispered, because my mom was beside me.
then i told myself loudly when my mom gave me the sympathetic look,
"1 and a half year only what, what to scare?"
Nananananana. 1 and a half year, why so long?
No wonder i have came out with another talent, i can talk to wall now.

Can you give me a teddy bear so that he can accompany me when i'm bored?

Glad that i'm leaving again tomorrow! :D

Spent 160 bucks today, in Qiant.
Ok i will announce my new talent to my stalkers few weeks later.
Thank you.
:DDD

Wait for you -- Elliott Yamin

I never felt nothing in the world like this before,
Now I'm missing you and I'm wishing you would come back through my door.
Why did you have to go?
You could have let me know,
So now I'm all alone.
Girl, you could have stayed
But you wouldnt give me a chance.
With you not around, it's a little bit more than I can stand.
And all my tears they
Keep running down my face.
Why did you turn away?

So why does your pride make you run and hide?
Are you that afraid of me?
But I know it's a lie what you keep inside,
This is not how you want it to be.

So, baby, I will wait for you.
'Cause I don't know what else I can do.
Don't tell me I ran out of time.
If it takes the rest of my life,

Baby, I will wait for you.
If you think I'm fine, it just aint true.
I really need you in my life.
No matter what I have to do, I'll wait for you.

It's been a long time since you called me.
(How could you forget about me?)
You gotta be feeling crazy.
How can you walk away?
Everything stays the same,
I just can't do it, baby.
What will it take to make you come back?
Girl, I told you what it is and it just ain't like that.
Why can't you look at me?
You're still in love with me.
Don't leave me crying.

Baby, why can't we just-- just start over again?
Get it back to the way it was.
If you give me a chance, I can love you right.
But you're telling me it won't be enough.

So, baby, I will wait for you.
'Cause I don't know what else I can do.
Don't tell me I ran out of time.
If it takes the rest of my life,

Baby, I will wait for you.
If you think I'm fine, it just ain't true.
I really need you in my life,
No matter what I have to do, I'll wait for you.

So why does your pride make you run and hide?
Are you that afraid of me?
But I know it's a lie what you're keeping inside.
That is not how you want it to be.

Baby, I will wait for you.
(for you) Oooooh.
Baby, I will wait for you.
If it's the last thing I do,

Baby, I will wait for you,
'Cause I don't know what else I can do.
Don't tell me I ran out of time.
If it takes the rest of my life,

Baby, I will wait for you.
If you think I'm fine, it just ain't true.
I really need you in my life,
No matter what I have to do, I'll wait for you.

I'll be waiting.

Goodnight!

O.m.g.
Hostel is like a dead block.
I swear i won't stay till 12am tonight.
What to do?
When everyone is at home enjoy their Deepavali holiday, i have class tomorrow.
-.-

I really really want to cook.
I don't like those outside food, fattening and unhealthy.
I can't eat them everyday, for 3 times. -.-
but my room is so damn small, how can i squeeze all my cooking utensils in this tiny room?
I already got no enough oxygen.
OH FML.

I'm so damn jealous.



当我不小心让你失望的时候,我希望你说没关系,因为你舍不得骂我,舍不得看我内疚到痛哭流涕.
可是你的心里会不停诅咒我,因为你很介意,在乎我在乎得要死,气我没好好让你高兴一场气得自己拼命捶心肝.

:)

Heehee.

I cut my hair 2-inches short!
Because it is October already & i have been wanting a new hair style.
But i still like curly hair. Uhm. Hahaha.

Yey! Deepavali is coming & i'm going home!
I can't deny that there's another form of stress at home, but i'm looking forward to going home still, every time.
:)
Oh time flies so freaking fast, this year is soon ending, and 2012 is here.
I'm actually so scare, i can't bear to leave my 18th, and i'm afraid of all sort of stress coming next year.
IELTS, As, A2, everything.
Ahh God bless me.

Cheating is a little bit fun, I sneaked into Inti's small crowded gym without paying.
Lol!
I saved up my 8 ringgit and you know, its for 2 meals.
But i'm not so sure it is good or bad to have good acting skill on me. Haha.

He said,
if i have a girlfriend like you who is pretty & sexy, I can wait for her for the 7 or 8 years.
:)

Life's sweet, isn't it?

加油！

曾经有人问我,为什么不爱自己多一点,为什么不自私一点.
当下我只是笑笑,回答这些很疼爱我的人:
"这就是我啊,你们不就是因为这样才疼爱我的吗."

可是自私真的比较快乐吗?
然后你就会得到比较多,活得比别人精彩?
我现在觉得有些人真的不适合自私
可能我真的想试试看,看自己多为自己着想,把分给身边的人的爱减少一些,
然后,通通丢给自己.
害怕爱释放得太多,别人会不珍惜,甚至踩在脚底下.
就连拥抱也吝啬,笑容也通通藏起来.

过了半年
我只能说,不开心啊.
当你老是对着自己的问题团团转,觉得自己很可怜,自怨自艾的时候
花点时间在你爱的人身上,听听他们的心事
给他们一些拥抱,说一些鼓励的话
你自己也会温暖起来.
有什么会比为别人带来温暖更温暖呢.

也许自私的人不该骂
他们也不想自私 他们只是害怕没有了自私 就没有人会爱自己了

当你总是忙着安慰别人,对别人好,把爱分出去
自己也快乐起来了
这样不好吗?

哈哈
我的意思是,也许你应该试试看.
没有什么事情这么糟糕的
这下子解决不了,就再等等吧.
总有一天快乐又会上门来啦!

加油,在挣扎的朋友们.
大家一起加油啊! :)

Sometimes when you want to be cooperative, you lost yourself.

如果你是自卑地，那你何必假装自信
成功了，大家都觉得你变得更好
失败了，别人只会觉得你可怜，甚至悲哀。
所以，为什么要假装呢？
认清自己才会有机会真正改变，不是吗？

How much do you hate yourself?
What would you do if demon gives you a knife?

You are no longer you anymore, when you care too much.
So the one you know is totally different as the one he knows, and she knows.
What is wrong with people who has double or triple personalities?
They are just trying to be best.
So why do doctors call them patient?
Why do psychiatrists judge them schizophrenia?

Wonder?
Me too.

Women are troublesome most of the time, although they're cute too, sometimes.

How much do you love yourself?
How many stars would you award yourself if you have 10 in your hands?

Life is short.
So i dress up everyday.
And i'm 18. If i don't do it now, when should i?
So what if i'm just going to class, to school?
Although i never want to attract anyone. Lol.

Yeah, this is stupid if you don't think of yourself more.
Nowadays people is expert in this.
Excuses are everywhere.
So when you're independent, strong & reliable, trouble comes to you.
Nobody ever want you to be so man, you want it.
Lalalalalalalala, fine. What would you call him if this words came from a man?
I think we should call him a kid.

I can't sleep.
Although i'm tired.
And i have already brought so much trouble to my neighbour.
Owe her a piece of chocolate.

I know its bad to rely on anything, but you can't study can't eat can't laugh when you didn't sleep well.
The more i feel like running away from classes, the more i force myself to go.
What's wrong?
And sometimes i think, maybe people who says they can't sleep even if they're tired, are actually not that tired.
They imagine that.

I think my hair drops so frequently because they simply want to leave my brain.
Luckily i have no hair on my tiny little red heart.
:D

If i die young

So, what if i die young?

Place me in a bed of roses,
put a sign of Hi-5 on my face,
burn me completely,
and use my ashes to build the most signifinant building of the world.

Dream on.

You're right.

Your time is limited, so don't waste it living someone else's life. Don't be trapped by dogma — which is living with the results of other people's thinking. Don't let the noise of others' opinions drown out your own inner voice. And most important, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition. They somehow already know what you truly want to become. Everything else is secondary.


-Steve Job

Rest in peace.

Move on!

:)

So i guess, everything will be alright.
Thanks. :)

Fyi, i have no 8am class tomorrow.
Great life isn't it?

One week of Deepavali's holiday is coming!
I miss shoppingsssss!

:D

There's something that i can't always understand.
I take my time to chew it and figure it out.
They always taste good.

WHAT THE HELL THAT I SHOULD DO.

YOU TELL ME.

I'm like a cow.

I never know which is the best of me.
I can never figure it out.
And when people says you change, what can you do other than giving them a smile?
You can't always assume people are talking that you're changing for better.
There's always a reason for them to say that.
I can't hide that i care about it, if people never tells what is that that i have changed.
Perhaps its not towards the worse, they just can't get used to it.
And i know mixed feelings are there, for me and for them.

Little guy said, what for i do everything to be someone whom you like, whom you prefer.
I just need to be one whom i want to be, whom i meant to be.
Sometimes its uncontrollable, you can't ignore people who is important to you.
Especially what they say about you.
And i know i can't even ignore what a stranger says, unless he is someone i would scold a 'shit' when i see him.

I think its better to be like this, i hate it when i can't give an interesting response when people are telling jokes, when they make fun of you.
Smile and make scene quiet is not a good choice.
Who wants to be boring in anyway?
I guess people are repeating this over and over again.
You change into this person when you meet this kind of people, you change into another person when you are with another group of friends.
You said its like not having a special characteristics, its just following what people needs, so its actually living under everyone you care about.
But what is wrong with that?
This is also a characteristic, just sometimes you can't be so sure to change into this or that.
Like what people says, change yourself to suit different environment, isn't it?

Just we need those true friends who know your true color and would never leave you.
They never tell you that you changed.
They can already expected what is in you although you might not show it to them.
They understand what is going on you and they give you support.
I think this is what a true friend does.

Lol, i think i have over-reacted over this 'changing' issue.
People might not think that 'change' has any negative meaning. :)



You admire those who choose what they like and what they really want.
You even give them support.
but when it comes to someone close to you, you can't accept.
You scare of failure, and in some point, you're not confident in her.
That makes me disappointed.
I'm just, nothing.
Now, i don't believe i can be a doctor, without you trusting.

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Hello idiot speaking.

Really, i know i'm not funny, not interesting, not cute not friendly.
I can't take silly jokes and that little tiny thing in your eyes may be some huge deal for me.
So, love me or walk away from me, you decide.

Daddy called, i know he miss me.
but i don't know what was i doing or, what was i having in my mind.

Those things which so-called principles, you don't need to understand.
Because me don't too.

Hey Mr Andy, text me if you see this, if you know my phone is dead, if you know i can't remember your contact number, if you know i miss you, and if you know how much i appreciate the friendship between us.
Even though there is only 10% that you would see this.

I'm tired.
I can't solve a mathematics question anymore.

Sometimes i think you shouldn't be that nice to me, i don't deserve it.
Your heart maybe end up broken.
and frankly speaking, i don't want that.

Is there a rule that you should be nice to the person that who has been nice to you?

God i need you.

Smile at me ;D

Be glad for me when i live my life happily, because i'm enjoying.
Be glad for me when i have hard time, because i'm on the way to a stronger person. :)
I know you always will. :))

I shower in cold water in rainy nights.
I sleep with a smile in rainy nights, too.
:D

Uhm, i think i'm transforming into a pig.
LOL!

I'm in a dilemma, save me?

I don't know what to say but i just love them a lot.
These girls are amazing.
I know its my destiny to go for national service.
We meant to be sisters, something that is more than friends.

Sometimes when i look back at my life, there are so many things that meant a lot.
If you ask me would i want to been through all of those if i could choose once more, i still want, i would still made the same decision.
So what?
Even if i lose something which is like so important to the whole society, whole world, and all of those people around me, i gained something which is probably tiny, but these little tiny things actually made me up.
So this is me, and so i'm ong li yin.

I know God sends everyone to me for a reason, no matter they love me or hate me or hurt me. So do you? :)

Uhm, have you ever told someone that he/she is important for you and soon after that you feel so damn insecure?
I think its because you are not confident enough.
Lol.

Ns gave me great memory and i miss every single thing there.
3 months are short although the days are quite lame, despite my awesome friends and wonderful 18-years-old-experience which i would never forget.
Its like a dream and even though i had cried so much, i had wanted to go home and never go back so eagerly, everything was so beautiful.
And i miss you, jerk. :)



I think hair well represents one's character.
don't you believe?
Touch my hair and feel it.
HAHA! Ok i'm bullshit-ing.

:D

I'm coffee addicted.

Sometimes when you have too many principles, you lost your friends.

The earth is still rotating without you alive.

Don't be sarcastic :)

Johnny English Reborn made my day :)
"People think because I can make them laugh on the stage, I'll be able to make them laugh in person. That isn't the case at all. I am essentially a rather quiet, dull person who just happens to be a performer." -Rowan Atkinson (Mr.Bean)
People always has two sides, yeah?
And i seriously think, psychologists are always too cool, no matter how much they earn.
I'm just not brave enough.

Dropped my phone on the floor and it was sleeping all day.
Pray that it will be alright, please, although i can't wake it up.
It just blink, like the star in the sky.
Sorry, i have tried my best. :(

When i decided to play a day, i enjoy myself.
I would never show a black face & you know, i was really happy when they saw me in the morning. So, don't accuse me.
I'm not having PMS & i knew i was fierce for a certain reason.
I aren't sure but i do hope it means something, for i was not angry for nothing.

If sorry doesn't come from your true heart, don't say so.
Repeating your mistake make me feel like forgiving you is something silly.
And i wanted to say, to be punctual is the best way to show respect to others and of course yourself.
For me, you are late because you never take me seriously, or maybe all of us.
Everyone is the same, none of us enjoy wasting time.
Of course perhaps when i was in the same situation, i would probably be late too.
If God would give me the chance.
To be frank, i can't take this anymore. I'm sorry.
I'm not like those who can be tolerate & forgiving all the time.

I believe there is always a reason that people become unreasonable.
Its either there's no love or way too much for them, like having too many sweets spoil your teeth.
-.-

I LOVE THE OLD WOMAN IN MY HOUSE.

Sometimes i think i'm born an artist.
You asked me why didn't i further my studies in field that i'm seriously talented, Lol.
I don't know.
I always think that i can, if i try hard.
I am not so sure its that i'm really interested, talented, born to be or i just simply want to prove myself.
You know, i guess you know it.

but, why not?
People takes their strongest field in studies, work it out & work for the rest of their life. Their strongest is still the strongest, their weakest will never improve.
And so, my everything turns out to be average, why not? ;)
Ok i know i'm making myself feeling better. Lol.

I seriously know i need to diet.
48 is always the best.

LOL!

Life is turning better, when i try to enjoy it & live it out.
I think i have really changed in someway, like what Mr Vv & Jj said.
Lol, i will make sure its not towards the worse.
Their reminder always help! :D

There's always people you can never agree with, but you recognize them as your friends, close friends or even best friends.
Friends do not need to be same in everything as long as you can tolerate with each other. Hmm? :) and thing is not that hard when you keep your heart opened.

Oh yeah, i did something silly? annoying? or maybe, irritating?
but trust me, i was trying to have some sense of humour...
This was the note i stick onto my neighbour's door:
"Close your door gently so that it won't break,
walk your steps gently so that your shoes won't tear"
I even put a smile & of course, a thank you before i ended my words.
Ok sorry, i know its sarcastic.
but i seriously can't take it anymore, by counting the times i was awoke by her noise. -.-
She actually came to knock my door & said sorry, plus "if you have anything else next time please come to me directly cuz its too embarrassing to have a note on my door".
Haha!
Ok i'm sorry.
I was not really considerate when i'm annoyed.
Thanks God she actually walks gently & closes her door gently since that.
God blessed!
yeah, i did not dare to go to her cuz, she never show her smile. :(

Left 1 subject for mid-term.
Btw i already screw up my chemistry. FML.