:)


-.-

Hello.
Imbalance. -.-
The best way to vent my emo-ness is to talk.
Thank you i knew i bother you so damn a lot.

First day when i came into my room, i "WOW".
I whispered in my ears, 'don't you think its like living in jail?'
I whispered, because my mom was beside me.
then i told myself loudly when my mom gave me the sympathetic look,
"1 and a half year only what, what to scare?"
Nananananana. 1 and a half year, why so long?
No wonder i have came out with another talent, i can talk to wall now.

Can you give me a teddy bear so that he can accompany me when i'm bored?

Glad that i'm leaving again tomorrow! :D

Spent 160 bucks today, in Qiant.
Ok i will announce my new talent to my stalkers few weeks later.
Thank you.
:DDD

Wait for you -- Elliott Yamin

I never felt nothing in the world like this before,
Now I'm missing you and I'm wishing you would come back through my door.
Why did you have to go?
You could have let me know,
So now I'm all alone.
Girl, you could have stayed
But you wouldnt give me a chance.
With you not around, it's a little bit more than I can stand.
And all my tears they
Keep running down my face.
Why did you turn away?

So why does your pride make you run and hide?
Are you that afraid of me?
But I know it's a lie what you keep inside,
This is not how you want it to be.

So, baby, I will wait for you.
'Cause I don't know what else I can do.
Don't tell me I ran out of time.
If it takes the rest of my life,

Baby, I will wait for you.
If you think I'm fine, it just aint true.
I really need you in my life.
No matter what I have to do, I'll wait for you.

It's been a long time since you called me.
(How could you forget about me?)
You gotta be feeling crazy.
How can you walk away?
Everything stays the same,
I just can't do it, baby.
What will it take to make you come back?
Girl, I told you what it is and it just ain't like that.
Why can't you look at me?
You're still in love with me.
Don't leave me crying.

Baby, why can't we just-- just start over again?
Get it back to the way it was.
If you give me a chance, I can love you right.
But you're telling me it won't be enough.

So, baby, I will wait for you.
'Cause I don't know what else I can do.
Don't tell me I ran out of time.
If it takes the rest of my life,

Baby, I will wait for you.
If you think I'm fine, it just ain't true.
I really need you in my life,
No matter what I have to do, I'll wait for you.

So why does your pride make you run and hide?
Are you that afraid of me?
But I know it's a lie what you're keeping inside.
That is not how you want it to be.

Baby, I will wait for you.
(for you) Oooooh.
Baby, I will wait for you.
If it's the last thing I do,

Baby, I will wait for you,
'Cause I don't know what else I can do.
Don't tell me I ran out of time.
If it takes the rest of my life,

Baby, I will wait for you.
If you think I'm fine, it just ain't true.
I really need you in my life,
No matter what I have to do, I'll wait for you.

I'll be waiting.

Goodnight!

O.m.g.
Hostel is like a dead block.
I swear i won't stay till 12am tonight.
What to do?
When everyone is at home enjoy their Deepavali holiday, i have class tomorrow.
-.-

I really really want to cook.
I don't like those outside food, fattening and unhealthy.
I can't eat them everyday, for 3 times. -.-
but my room is so damn small, how can i squeeze all my cooking utensils in this tiny room?
I already got no enough oxygen.
OH FML.

I'm so damn jealous.



当我不小心让你失望的时候,我希望你说没关系,因为你舍不得骂我,舍不得看我内疚到痛哭流涕.
可是你的心里会不停诅咒我,因为你很介意,在乎我在乎得要死,气我没好好让你高兴一场气得自己拼命捶心肝.

:)

Heehee.

I cut my hair 2-inches short!
Because it is October already & i have been wanting a new hair style.
But i still like curly hair. Uhm. Hahaha.

Yey! Deepavali is coming & i'm going home!
I can't deny that there's another form of stress at home, but i'm looking forward to going home still, every time.
:)
Oh time flies so freaking fast, this year is soon ending, and 2012 is here.
I'm actually so scare, i can't bear to leave my 18th, and i'm afraid of all sort of stress coming next year.
IELTS, As, A2, everything.
Ahh God bless me.

Cheating is a little bit fun, I sneaked into Inti's small crowded gym without paying.
Lol!
I saved up my 8 ringgit and you know, its for 2 meals.
But i'm not so sure it is good or bad to have good acting skill on me. Haha.

He said,
if i have a girlfriend like you who is pretty & sexy, I can wait for her for the 7 or 8 years.
:)

Life's sweet, isn't it?

加油！

曾经有人问我,为什么不爱自己多一点,为什么不自私一点.
当下我只是笑笑,回答这些很疼爱我的人:
"这就是我啊,你们不就是因为这样才疼爱我的吗."

可是自私真的比较快乐吗?
然后你就会得到比较多,活得比别人精彩?
我现在觉得有些人真的不适合自私
可能我真的想试试看,看自己多为自己着想,把分给身边的人的爱减少一些,
然后,通通丢给自己.
害怕爱释放得太多,别人会不珍惜,甚至踩在脚底下.
就连拥抱也吝啬,笑容也通通藏起来.

过了半年
我只能说,不开心啊.
当你老是对着自己的问题团团转,觉得自己很可怜,自怨自艾的时候
花点时间在你爱的人身上,听听他们的心事
给他们一些拥抱,说一些鼓励的话
你自己也会温暖起来.
有什么会比为别人带来温暖更温暖呢.

也许自私的人不该骂
他们也不想自私 他们只是害怕没有了自私 就没有人会爱自己了

当你总是忙着安慰别人,对别人好,把爱分出去
自己也快乐起来了
这样不好吗?

哈哈
我的意思是,也许你应该试试看.
没有什么事情这么糟糕的
这下子解决不了,就再等等吧.
总有一天快乐又会上门来啦!

加油,在挣扎的朋友们.
大家一起加油啊! :)

Sometimes when you want to be cooperative, you lost yourself.

如果你是自卑地，那你何必假装自信
成功了，大家都觉得你变得更好
失败了，别人只会觉得你可怜，甚至悲哀。
所以，为什么要假装呢？
认清自己才会有机会真正改变，不是吗？

How much do you hate yourself?
What would you do if demon gives you a knife?

You are no longer you anymore, when you care too much.
So the one you know is totally different as the one he knows, and she knows.
What is wrong with people who has double or triple personalities?
They are just trying to be best.
So why do doctors call them patient?
Why do psychiatrists judge them schizophrenia?

Wonder?
Me too.

Women are troublesome most of the time, although they're cute too, sometimes.

How much do you love yourself?
How many stars would you award yourself if you have 10 in your hands?

Life is short.
So i dress up everyday.
And i'm 18. If i don't do it now, when should i?
So what if i'm just going to class, to school?
Although i never want to attract anyone. Lol.

Yeah, this is stupid if you don't think of yourself more.
Nowadays people is expert in this.
Excuses are everywhere.
So when you're independent, strong & reliable, trouble comes to you.
Nobody ever want you to be so man, you want it.
Lalalalalalalala, fine. What would you call him if this words came from a man?
I think we should call him a kid.

I can't sleep.
Although i'm tired.
And i have already brought so much trouble to my neighbour.
Owe her a piece of chocolate.

I know its bad to rely on anything, but you can't study can't eat can't laugh when you didn't sleep well.
The more i feel like running away from classes, the more i force myself to go.
What's wrong?
And sometimes i think, maybe people who says they can't sleep even if they're tired, are actually not that tired.
They imagine that.

I think my hair drops so frequently because they simply want to leave my brain.
Luckily i have no hair on my tiny little red heart.
:D

If i die young

So, what if i die young?

Place me in a bed of roses,
put a sign of Hi-5 on my face,
burn me completely,
and use my ashes to build the most signifinant building of the world.

Dream on.

You're right.

Your time is limited, so don't waste it living someone else's life. Don't be trapped by dogma — which is living with the results of other people's thinking. Don't let the noise of others' opinions drown out your own inner voice. And most important, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition. They somehow already know what you truly want to become. Everything else is secondary.


-Steve Job

Rest in peace.

Move on!

:)

So i guess, everything will be alright.
Thanks. :)

Fyi, i have no 8am class tomorrow.
Great life isn't it?

One week of Deepavali's holiday is coming!
I miss shoppingsssss!

:D

There's something that i can't always understand.
I take my time to chew it and figure it out.
They always taste good.

WHAT THE HELL THAT I SHOULD DO.

YOU TELL ME.

I'm like a cow.

I never know which is the best of me.
I can never figure it out.
And when people says you change, what can you do other than giving them a smile?
You can't always assume people are talking that you're changing for better.
There's always a reason for them to say that.
I can't hide that i care about it, if people never tells what is that that i have changed.
Perhaps its not towards the worse, they just can't get used to it.
And i know mixed feelings are there, for me and for them.

Little guy said, what for i do everything to be someone whom you like, whom you prefer.
I just need to be one whom i want to be, whom i meant to be.
Sometimes its uncontrollable, you can't ignore people who is important to you.
Especially what they say about you.
And i know i can't even ignore what a stranger says, unless he is someone i would scold a 'shit' when i see him.

I think its better to be like this, i hate it when i can't give an interesting response when people are telling jokes, when they make fun of you.
Smile and make scene quiet is not a good choice.
Who wants to be boring in anyway?
I guess people are repeating this over and over again.
You change into this person when you meet this kind of people, you change into another person when you are with another group of friends.
You said its like not having a special characteristics, its just following what people needs, so its actually living under everyone you care about.
But what is wrong with that?
This is also a characteristic, just sometimes you can't be so sure to change into this or that.
Like what people says, change yourself to suit different environment, isn't it?

Just we need those true friends who know your true color and would never leave you.
They never tell you that you changed.
They can already expected what is in you although you might not show it to them.
They understand what is going on you and they give you support.
I think this is what a true friend does.

Lol, i think i have over-reacted over this 'changing' issue.
People might not think that 'change' has any negative meaning. :)



You admire those who choose what they like and what they really want.
You even give them support.
but when it comes to someone close to you, you can't accept.
You scare of failure, and in some point, you're not confident in her.
That makes me disappointed.
I'm just, nothing.
Now, i don't believe i can be a doctor, without you trusting.