Mind your own business

Most people gossip about you, they don't concern about you.

I told my kids,
Anyone can love you, as long as they have money and time.
But not everyone will expect in you, to expect, they need to trust and love first.

I knew I was reminding myself, too.

Big bruise on my thigh, small bruise in my heart.

Fell down from a staircase at my workplace.
Ouch, first time having such a big bruise on my body.
When I slipped, what in my mind was only how to protect my spine.
I tried to grip anything around me just to make sure I don't roll from the staircase.
I felt I was lucky to know how crucial it is to not hurt the spine.
It was really painful and I couldn't help thinking of you, when I need your shoulders.

I still hold on to my job when most of my colleagues hand in their resignation.
I am very clear with myself that I know I want to see the kids grow.
Its only for them.
I couldn't bear to leave them like that when I finally see some improvements.
One of the kids asked, "Teacher, have you ever thought of killing yourself?"
I didn't know what to say but I'm sure he has been thinking about this.
They are pitiful for me, as they don't have parents who are able to spend time with them.
They don't have chance to talk to their parents, everything is build on materialism.
I try not to act like an adult telling them they don't know how to appreciate, while I have to explain why would their parents act so.
Yes and again, it is my expectation that exhausted me.
I don't have any expectation on myself this time, I am learning not to.
But you know, every child deserves a right teacher to guide them.
I hope I can do it better, for their own good, not for my own career or expectation or whatever else.
I see how tough it is to be a parent, even though I haven had my own kids.
When you miss the right timing, thing will not come crawling back to you.

I didn't know why I woke up so fast.
It was like a dream but I could have make it real.
I could watch us grow and I was thinking why couldn't I be more patient.

I don't want to that independent.

My life is so full with surprises these days.

I see how people concern about me, so thanks. Lol.

I'd just mind my own business.

Have a safe flight to New Zealand, Wei vvy. 

Have fun and take care!  x)

Urgh, I insisted to get my second salary before I do anything immature.

God bless.

OH HAPPY SNAKE!

HAPPY LUNAR NEW YEAR!

I personally don't like snake much, but I still hope God would love me in this brand new year. ;)

I can't deny that I only understand parents' wise words after I have experienced something.
Something I chose to believe that would never happened on me.
But it just did.
Aunt said, people don't necessarily treat you good even if they look up on you.
They need you, for their own good, so they look up on you knowing that you have the ability.
So its not necessarily good to show your good points all the time.
Fine.
I can only ask myself not to care so much about money and my own principle, because I can't say a thing.
I would just try my best to survive through this working period since it won't be long.
Its a lesson, for that I have learnt not to think everybody as good people, and don't think too less about your job.
Some people would suck your blood in a very polite way. Which is totally fake.
I would be more careful as protect myself is so important when there is no one for you to count on.

Lost so much personal time since I started working.
I somehow felt distance among me and my loved ones.
I don't want to see this happen again in the future, please God.

I am so greedy that I have asked so much from God when I prayed! :pp

Being a Mommy!

Oh oh, I just realized I actually survived through this first month of being a teacher!
I never thought that I'd get the chance to be so close with kids, and I never knew I'd be missing them like they are my own kids.
Honestly sometimes I think they are demons but they smiled like angels.
This melts my heart. Shit. HAHAHA.
I don't look very young and some of them slipped their mouths by calling me 'Mommy'.
Well I actually enjoy being called that.
I enjoy more when I teased them back by calling them 'Honey' and make them shy.
Heh.
Its tiring but I never regret for being their second mommy, I love how I give them warmth. :)

Its so hard to earn.
I finally see how much my parents have given me.
And I am actually greedy, I want more in the future.

Some people call you stupid, they don't know how good it feels for being able to be stupid.
How pathetic it is to be always smart.
I am only stupid when I have someone to rely on, when I have someone whom I trust.
To see me smart, show me your ugly face.
I always think if a girl is silly, she definitely is loved.
Don't you agree?

Yay, Chinese New Year is close and I'm happy! :D