不可爱的可爱

Some people step on you to look for better self-esteem.
As long as you understand, you don't get mad.
Smile and compliment them, because they need it. :)


People says I look alike with my Dad.
I scare i would be bold very young. :D

我持有双重标准。
我只能克制自己不要把实施在我身上的标准加诸于人，特别是我身边很亲密的人。
所以我没有坚定立场。
朋友身上的弱点是可爱，我身上的，是失败。
我终于知道自己为什么这么不可爱。

或许我是最穷的。

一直以来我只想到作为医生成功为病人解除病痛的喜悦，忽略了医学上也有无法解释和根治的病痛。
那么，以后，当病人失望离去的时候，就算病人本身和家属都不责怪医生，我小小的心承受得起吗？

前些天和小学时期很疼爱我也对我很严厉的补习老师通了电话。
她问，除了医生，我的第二选择是什么。
当下我答不上话，挺尴尬。
后来我想一想，有了第二选择，朝第二选择发展的可能性就提高很多，那成为医生的几率就相对减少。
我不希望这样的事情发生。
因为我清楚知道除了我的个人因素，其他外来因素改变不了我的决心。
那么，我不用为了回答别人的问题为自己想一个答案，我只有一个选择。

不过，我想我心里的我，和你们期许的我不一样。
目前为止，我还没有勇气说出来。

HAPPY CNY!

Congratulations to those who have got good result for their AS!
Soon it's my turn Lol.



I think my dragon year will be awesome! Hee :D

May your wishes come true!
Mine definitely will! ;)

If there's no corruption, there is no poverty.

"We need a tax system that essentially takes good care of the people who just really aren't well adapted to the market system but are nevertheless doing useful things in society."
-Warren Buffett (An ardent capitalist who is demanding higher taxes on the rich and more government spending on the rest to solve the U.S.'s economic problems)



I simply don't think I would make what I want to be done, done.
There are plenty of things.
So I run fast, and never stop. :)

Its getting harder to live alone out of my hometown.
Its unavoidable to cry in the middle of the night, but i stay strong all the time.
I hope the same for you, my lovely friends.

你知道无能为力是什么感觉吗？

有人因为不愿意小心照顾自己的健康生病，有人因为不得已的情况生病。
我无法接受故意生病却又嚷嚷自己很可怜的人。
不愿意好好照顾自己而生病，知道自己活该，不抱怨不接受治疗的人，也不值得同情。
除非，真的除非你有不得已的苦衷。
比如你没有任何亲人，我想，这也许是因为心先生病了。

我觉得照顾自己的健康是一种责任。
当你觉得身体是你自己的，你有权力破坏它，不珍惜它，和别人无关，这样很自私。
特别是当你的身边有爱你的人的时候。
让人为你担心不是一件好玩的事。
不过如果你为了不让我担心而选择不告诉我，默默让自己不健康下去，谢谢你。
我不感激。
这样不对，不诚实，不成熟，我无话可说。
明明知道怎样可以预防自己的病痛却不实行，我不知道到底还有什么是最重要的。
当然，除非你觉得自己的生命没有价值，也没有人会为你悲伤，我希望你不要来到这个世界上。

我不想说这些话，但是我觉得自己已经无能为力。
我只是想趁你还愿意改变的时候，想办法让你善待和照顾自己。
想想身边爱你和需要你的人吧。
如果你舍得让他们难过，继续固执，继续无所谓。
有一天他们也会对你无所谓。

年轻真好。
请不要以为自己年轻，大事小事都无所谓。

这篇，是我特别写给你看的。

I am not only a woman.

I can't deny that new semester is good, i am fine, and i guess everything is alright.
I am missing ex-classmates.
I hate myself sometimes, i love myself most of the time.
I cook my own dinner, wash my own clothes, clean my own room.
When downpour rain wets my just-washed-clothes, I get mad.
When I need seasoning for my dishes but i can only keep soy sauce and salt because i have no fridge, I get sad.
When my hair drops crazily and make my floor dirty everyday, I get depressed.
And the more depressed i am, the more awful my food turns out and the more my hair drops.
OH GOD.

I think distance is kind, it makes us appreciate each other more, and it makes us think of people's better side more.



I think i will colour my page someday.

I thank God for everything.

我始终相信自己

和我的未来。



:)

I will.

I never betrayed my promises for myself.
So do this time.
I said i want it, i will get it.
Don't you worry.

I believe in myself, like how you taught me.

Tell me its all just nightmare.

DAMN.

DAMN it.
Nightmare made me exhausted.
Tell me nothing is true.

I am not so strong to face that because you told me you won't.

Dream of me

Oh my God.
I didn't realize its 4th of Jan already and i didn't know i need to go back to school tomorrow!
Do you believe it, i was so blur. -.-
I thought 4th Jan falls on thursday! Fine fine.
Now i can no longer follow Mr. Lim's car, i don't know how and when to go back.
Nah i don't wanna go back too.
Just stay at home will do. :P

Bang my car to a wall this morning as i didn't really wake up from sleep.
I didn't even know how i drove home.
Dad said, wash your face La before you drive!
Okay yes sir.

Ah! Good night!

I don't want anything, i only want a stronger me.

天啊.
如果你知道我的天啊里包涵多少多少我想说的话,
谢谢你.

如果成长会让我孤单,我会好好珍惜这样的青春.

I don't mind if you look down on me, but i hope you don't say "It's all by luck." when i achieve something BIG.

Mayans won't be right.

HAPPY NEW YEAR! :)

2011 was a challenging one, it somehow made me tougher & stronger.
There were quite a number of things which i can never forget, or maybe explain.
I am not sure whether words can describe it all.
but i am truly glad for my changes.
Just i hope the best for all of us next, and i will always believe in what i want to believe.
I think you will, too.

Well, I am not feeling too good for 2012.
but I thank God for keeping me alive till this 2012.
I hope Mayans aren't right, i have so many things undone.
I have never achieved what i wanna achieve yet.
Give me more years, more life please.
Lol. I am serious.

All the best to all of you, everyone that stand a place in my heart.
Thank God, thank you.

:)