I assume you miss me!

It has been a month away from home.
Now that I really can't keep myself calm anymore, so I am going home.
Its tiring to miss somebody so much, without seeing the familiar face, hearing the warm voice, touching his/her everything.
You can't feel a thing of his/hers.

I realized how silly i was for doubting, because I was too insecure.
Sometimes you doubt people when they never voice out what you want to hear, you even allow bad imagination occurs within your stupid brain.
But there are people who do, not talk.
My family is of that kind.
I know its hard to believe I am the most talkative one at home, as I am quiet to most of the people outside.

You know, there are already 2 different characters of mine,
What do you expect when it comes to non-family, non-friends? Lol.

I am afraid that when i have children, they don't care to come home.
They have to come home for me, they have to love me more than their amazing daddy.
How helpless it is thinking I miss my children so much, but i can't do anything to make them home.
Just like my parents never told me that they miss me, i guess i am not brave enough to voice that out too when i am old.
So my children better come home on their own wish, without me begging.
Thinking of this, yeah, I assume my parents miss me too much everyday that they want to see me every second. :)

Just as you know, what i hate most is helplessness.

女人的幸福

女人的幸福来自于男人的疼爱。
有男人疼爱的女人，全身上下都会散发幸福的味道。

男人自动给女人一通电话，女人觉得幸福。
男人接送女人，女人觉得幸福。
男人给女人买早餐，女人觉得幸福。
男人上班前和下班后给女人轻轻一吻，女人觉得幸福。
男人为女人逛街选衣服，女人觉得幸福。
男人为了女人不玩电玩，女人也觉得幸福。

这么多这么多的幸福，如果另有一个女人可以让女人分享，那幸福会再加幸福。
如果这份幸福换来别的女人的羡慕，那幸福会再加幸福再加幸福。
如果这份幸福能够让别的男人钦佩赞叹，那幸福乘于十倍。
女人的幸福是用来分享和炫耀的，没得炫耀，那幸福也不过清淡如水。


至于男人，我不知道男人的幸福是不是也和女人一样，不过被女人炫耀幸福的男人，肯定幸福。
甚至，有福。

How'd you see me as an extreme?

Oh little bastard got an INVITATION for Chua-and-Lim debate tomorrow.
He didn't get 1 for me!
Eeh!
How thrilling could it be watching the live debate?
It is happening in front of you! Oh God!
Watch Astro AEC at 5pm on 17 Feb, you will see that little bastard on tv if we're lucky!
Yeah yeah, I don't even know where i can get a television for Astro AEC -.-

I have been thinking too much and i want everything to be simple now.
Simple, simpler, simplest.

I am an extreme.
I call myself one.
Don't expect me to be like this or that, you never know. :)

Mid-term test is coming!
Oww sick but, wish me luck!

Stop kidding knew you're money-faced.

I know its true in this world that if you're not rich, you ain't anybody.
So i guess, earning tones of money is a way to protect ourselves, isn't it?
Its the most unbearable fact.
You do anything for the sack of living, being respected and not being despised.
I knew i was lucky as i have always been in a good family.
I get everything i need, and most of the time too, I want.
So i have not been worrying how could it be when my pocket is out of money.
and I was not only once disagreed about what my dad said,
'You don't get enough money, you are dead.'
well perhaps its not dead, but he knows me, its almost like death, for me.
I mean what is it for when people disrespect you even maybe, you have done so much?
We know there's not many living things out there that would respect you when you can't show your money.

Its just like, you judge somebody by his/her face, body and maybe style.
Who would be interested in your characteristics and commitment if you're not looking good, wearing proper clothes, smelling nice?
HAHA.
Okay so i guess my dad said 'enough', its really enough.
I have to make sure if i can't earn much, I don't spend much too.
Its also a hint on the fact that I have not been worrying the reality, like money.


Okay dad, noted.

Can't think of A name.

People says, 'You have some kind of charm of a 'powerful woman'.'
I take it as a compliment?

There's a lot of thing for me to keep working on.
New challenges is coming every moment, and I guess I have no time slacking anymore.
And seriously, its not good knowing i need to study online.
This means touching my lappie is not relaxing, anymore. -.-

I used to tell one of my friends, nobody is going to give up his/her life without having anybody in the world.
But hey, how is it feel like when you know you can't live without someone in this world?
Its like, nothing matters anymore without this someone?
Hmm, does it sound like this statement is only true if you are lonely?
or its just simply because you have loved too much? :)


Guessing is tiring.
Its like i am a pervert. Lol.

Driving me mad.

Please forgive my ignorance, arrogance and everything else.
Please ignore the irritating, annoying, ridiculous me as well.



ALL IS WELL.

Oh yea, busybody.

有人说，知道这么多干什么，这些事老让人不开心。

我天生容易感到焦虑，有时甚至杞人忧天。
美国宾州大学心理教授（被尊称为正向心理学之父，Positive psychology）Martin E.P. Seligman 说，适当的焦虑是促使人未雨绸缪的主要因素。
这就表示世界上存在的地震仪，防盗系统，甚至预防医学都是容易感到焦虑的人设计发明的。
如果这些焦虑是你一直想要排除的，我想不必，只要这些焦虑不会让你忧郁或者精神分裂，一切都还安好。

那么多看一些报章和社会评论，怎么会只是让人不开心？
我怪自己傻，现在才知道这个堂而皇之的理由只是一个很自私无聊的借口。
也许你会说，我什么忙也帮不上，读了看了关心了愤怒了也不会有用。
那我就无话可说了，毕竟每个人的想法不同。
我个人认为一个人的力量可以很强大，只要你总是有智慧地努力不懈。
我也觉得帮不上忙这个问题，只是时辰未到。
就算就算我买东西不用塑料袋，垃圾坚持丢进垃圾桶，食物点了就吃完，我也相信我多少帮了地球一点忙。
如果我活到九十岁，我可以帮地球多少忙？
如果我影响我的家人朋友孩子孙子，我又可以帮地球多少忙？
一个人的力量很小吗？

可能你只是不相信自己。

当然空谈很无聊，我现在也只能身体力行。
我不会去要求身边的人做一些大多数地球人都不管的事，我觉得自己还没有资格。
不过如果你被我影响我当然很高兴，这是我一点小小的力量。

你应该知道，我不只容易感到焦虑，也喜欢多管闲事。

Somehow I wish 2012 is real.

My brain spins so fast like the fan & it just can't stop or even slow down that makes me faint.

Somehow I wish 2012 is real.

Stop giving me all those craps, I have thought about them all before and I have already came out with all the conclusions which you're now too proud of them.

Thank you for your concern.

How pathetic it is when you allow you to cheat yourself.
Why are these girls doing this?
Why is it girls should not be smart, should ignore the truth that guys are betraying?
Oh God, cheat yourself more, you will get punishment one day.

I did not, am not & definitely not going to.


Its sad when you trust somebody so much, he/she betrays you, and go on accusing you for not trusting him/her.
Why misuse that trust?


and it never came back anymore.

:))

T.G.I.F.

It's Friday!
And I am going to have a girls' outing tomorrow with C & E!
:DD

I guess I slept well last night, Hee :D

Even its nightmare in the dark, let me asleep.

When fear conquers you, you collapse.


I think you don't know how helpless it is when you stay awake on your bed for more than 2 hours in the midnight, when everyone else is asleep.

Who insulted who?

Who doesn't know Chinese uses Angpau during Chinese new year?
I bet everyone in Malaysia knew, even friends of other race.
Oh wait.. Maybe, the president of Perkasa doesn't know, which is ridiculous?
Datuk Ibrahim Ali, founder and the first president of Perkasa gave out white packets instead of red packets to Chinese during Chinese new year, on Perkasa's Chinese new year event.

First i was thinking, how many years does he live in Malaysia for which he did such a big mistake?
People like him should have consultants or maybe assistantsss to remind him about this.
And i personally think that someone who formed an organisation is impossible to have no knowledge on people's culture, even people of other race.
Who doesn't know Malay uses green packets?
so what is this?
I didn't know what to say, this is kind of FUNNY.
They insulted people by insulting themselves at first.
I am sure this is not a wise way, Datuk Ibrahim Ali.
Perhaps they enjoy seeing Chinese get mad upon this, perhaps they are cursing Chinese so that we all die early.
Or maybe, just like what they say, so furious for what?
People who made THESE kind of mistakes never apologized, why should they?

Then fine, see you in court.
Even though i wonder what would 'powerly' Chinese do next to win our hearts.



I don't like to complain.
but oh please, I can't stand people with their loud speaker on at night.
I know i have good ears.