Sometimes when you want to be cooperative, you lost yourself.

如果你是自卑地，那你何必假装自信
成功了，大家都觉得你变得更好
失败了，别人只会觉得你可怜，甚至悲哀。
所以，为什么要假装呢？
认清自己才会有机会真正改变，不是吗？

How much do you hate yourself?
What would you do if demon gives you a knife?

You are no longer you anymore, when you care too much.
So the one you know is totally different as the one he knows, and she knows.
What is wrong with people who has double or triple personalities?
They are just trying to be best.
So why do doctors call them patient?
Why do psychiatrists judge them schizophrenia?

Wonder?
Me too.

Women are troublesome most of the time, although they're cute too, sometimes.

How much do you love yourself?
How many stars would you award yourself if you have 10 in your hands?

Life is short.
So i dress up everyday.
And i'm 18. If i don't do it now, when should i?
So what if i'm just going to class, to school?
Although i never want to attract anyone. Lol.

Yeah, this is stupid if you don't think of yourself more.
Nowadays people is expert in this.
Excuses are everywhere.
So when you're independent, strong & reliable, trouble comes to you.
Nobody ever want you to be so man, you want it.
Lalalalalalalala, fine. What would you call him if this words came from a man?
I think we should call him a kid.

I can't sleep.
Although i'm tired.
And i have already brought so much trouble to my neighbour.
Owe her a piece of chocolate.

I know its bad to rely on anything, but you can't study can't eat can't laugh when you didn't sleep well.
The more i feel like running away from classes, the more i force myself to go.
What's wrong?
And sometimes i think, maybe people who says they can't sleep even if they're tired, are actually not that tired.
They imagine that.

I think my hair drops so frequently because they simply want to leave my brain.
Luckily i have no hair on my tiny little red heart.
:D

If i die young

So, what if i die young?

Place me in a bed of roses,
put a sign of Hi-5 on my face,
burn me completely,
and use my ashes to build the most signifinant building of the world.

Dream on.

You're right.

Your time is limited, so don't waste it living someone else's life. Don't be trapped by dogma — which is living with the results of other people's thinking. Don't let the noise of others' opinions drown out your own inner voice. And most important, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition. They somehow already know what you truly want to become. Everything else is secondary.


-Steve Job

Rest in peace.

Move on!

:)

So i guess, everything will be alright.
Thanks. :)

Fyi, i have no 8am class tomorrow.
Great life isn't it?

One week of Deepavali's holiday is coming!
I miss shoppingsssss!

:D

There's something that i can't always understand.
I take my time to chew it and figure it out.
They always taste good.

WHAT THE HELL THAT I SHOULD DO.

YOU TELL ME.

I'm like a cow.

I never know which is the best of me.
I can never figure it out.
And when people says you change, what can you do other than giving them a smile?
You can't always assume people are talking that you're changing for better.
There's always a reason for them to say that.
I can't hide that i care about it, if people never tells what is that that i have changed.
Perhaps its not towards the worse, they just can't get used to it.
And i know mixed feelings are there, for me and for them.

Little guy said, what for i do everything to be someone whom you like, whom you prefer.
I just need to be one whom i want to be, whom i meant to be.
Sometimes its uncontrollable, you can't ignore people who is important to you.
Especially what they say about you.
And i know i can't even ignore what a stranger says, unless he is someone i would scold a 'shit' when i see him.

I think its better to be like this, i hate it when i can't give an interesting response when people are telling jokes, when they make fun of you.
Smile and make scene quiet is not a good choice.
Who wants to be boring in anyway?
I guess people are repeating this over and over again.
You change into this person when you meet this kind of people, you change into another person when you are with another group of friends.
You said its like not having a special characteristics, its just following what people needs, so its actually living under everyone you care about.
But what is wrong with that?
This is also a characteristic, just sometimes you can't be so sure to change into this or that.
Like what people says, change yourself to suit different environment, isn't it?

Just we need those true friends who know your true color and would never leave you.
They never tell you that you changed.
They can already expected what is in you although you might not show it to them.
They understand what is going on you and they give you support.
I think this is what a true friend does.

Lol, i think i have over-reacted over this 'changing' issue.
People might not think that 'change' has any negative meaning. :)



You admire those who choose what they like and what they really want.
You even give them support.
but when it comes to someone close to you, you can't accept.
You scare of failure, and in some point, you're not confident in her.
That makes me disappointed.
I'm just, nothing.
Now, i don't believe i can be a doctor, without you trusting.