Don't come yet.

Attended my company's Annual Dinner last night, people said I am lucky but well, I don't really think so.
Its so hard to stay in a circumstances like that.
I am so annoyed seeing people being so fake around.
But I can understand, sometimes they don't want to be fake, nobody would enjoy doing that?
I don't know. I just want to try my best to be as pure as possible.

I don't know whether it is a good thing to be able to see who is sincere and who is not.
And of course, I am not sure whether my judgement is correct.
Fine, I just don't want to be involved in those ugly truth, I'd just focus on my own job.

I am not used to my thick make up, and I think I was not pretty wearing that.
Lol. Its better to have my small eyes back, for now.

I never thought it comes so fast.
I am not sure what would happen, and I am really lazy to think of it now.
I expected this I could say, but at the same time I am praying this would never come.
Or maybe, never arrive this early.

As a childcare tutor.

So I am currently working as a childcare tutor, doing something which I never thought of.
I never wanted to be a teacher as my part time job.
I always think education is something really important that only high-educated people can be teachers.
Youngsters need excellent people to teach them knowledge, skills and attitude.
And I walked in to a tuition centre, simply sat down for an interview.
Gotcha!

Now I am surrounded by kids with age between 5 to 12 years old.
I cook them lunch, watch them bath, make them nap and check their homework.
For me its job of a mom.
Its fun and I am very thankful that I got to learn how to communicate with kids.
And at the same time, learn how to be a mom. Lol.
But you know, some kids are just irritating.
They bully kind teachers and lie to you in face with angelic looks.
I was trapped for don't know how many time.
Was warned by experienced teachers, don't ever believe their words.
Because kids nowadays are not so simple anymore.
Or maybe these I met are special, or I simply look really dumb.

Yeah good thing is, they forgive and forget really fast.
Seeing them laugh like there's no anything that matters make me smile for a whole day.

I guess its hard for me to not putting real emotions and love for them within this period.
I want to teach them well, I want it myself.

Happy 2013!

Happy 2013 even though I am really late! :))

Didn't have the time to blog, just wanted to share some good things.
HAHA.
I know 2013 will be definitely good to me and my wish would always come true.
I believe so much in it la Hee.

Does Malaysia have a good tomorrow?

With my premonition, I went to get my first dose of HPV vaccine at one of the LPPKN clinics which is located in Taman Nusa Bestari, with miss Ho.

I was so angry because we were forced to go back again on another date to get the first dose done.

I am not sure whether its our fault or not to arrive at that clinic when there was only half an hour left until the clinic is closed, I thought it'd be okay because all they need to do is to poke a hole on our arms.

The nurse at the counter gave me an arrogant face, telling me that we came too late.

I said there was half an hour more to 5pm, they said they already closed the space for injection.

I gave them a 'what the hell' face, they immediately rejected me by asking me to fill out some forms at home and forced me to go back on monday morning.

So fine, here was my premonition.

I thought it did not make sense because even if we need to rest for 20 minutes after the injection, there would still be time left until 5pm.

But I can understand that they want to go home fast. It was a world-end-day, they need to spend more time with their family.

So do I.

I went home and vent my anger a bit, then I started to think.

Yeah, I do not want a life like that.

When my earning life starts, the least thing I want is to have the feeling of waiting for the working hours to end fast.

I want to seriously enjoy my work. 

Not to say I do not appreciate my personal time, but I would want to be happy to serve my last customer with all I can even if they're late, a bit.

I also do not want to see myself living for money, I'd still serve my best even if I don't get extra money.

I am praying for that, to keep my pure heart as long as I could.

And there's another thing, I should change my attitude when I meet the same situation next time.

I should just smile and say, 'Kakak, tolong tolong sikit....'

Hope it helps.

Take a chance.

"Your dad makes me sad sometimes. He is a little bad. But if you give me one more chance to choose, I will still marry him."
"The joy he gives me is much more than the pain," my mom said.
I couldn't describe how blessed I am to hear this. :)

You don't know how perfect it is to not trying to be perfect, yet people treasures you like you're a perfect person.
Sometimes good thing happens when you least expected, and when you start trying to be yourself.
Not worrying that people might leave you when they find out your weaknesses is something so AMAZING.

Some risk is worth taking. :D

I don't want to be alone.

Sick, so I went to the doctor to get some medication and make sure that I'd survive before the world ends.
The doctor, who is also my cousin, sat down and asked, "You don't want a life like mine, do you?"
...............
"You can't stop or change your path halfway, you have to hold on until you are satisfied with yourself, and hard work that you have paid off."
"How to judge where is the halfway?"
"Like now, I am still on the halfway." which for me, he is a successful doctor with hundreds of patients go in and out to his clinic everyday.
He earned, now he is 38 years old and he said he is only reaching his halfway.
Oh my goodness.
I just nodded my head, keeping his words in my mind and heart. Oh my goodness.



Some people said its not easy dealing with me.
I know it, I find it hard to deal with myself too.
I want to be simpler, simpler, more simple.

Don't take me for granted, please.
Because when I am willing to take a risk, I trust you with all my heart.

Happy face xoxo

Just wanna show you my happy face to let you know that I am all good. C:

Spend a whole day with family without having to worry about anything, is an extremely awesome thing.

Crazily shopping with my mom, the happier she is, the happier I am. 

HAHA, if you know what I meant. xoxo

Sleeping at home in this entire week was a little weird, I couldn't wake up before 10am everyday.

Nah not a good thing, I am a morning person, waking up early brings me a meaningful day.

If not, I'd be really lazy that you can't expect me to do a thing.

Saw the necklace I was wearing?

It was from my sis. Not for my birthday, not for any special occasion. 

It is a heart shape necklace, it simply means love. Hehee.

I seldom wear a necklace as I don't really enjoy the feeling that something is tying my neck.

I'd have suffocated by imagining it.

But I like receiving it as a gift from my loved ones. If I wear it, then I love you. Lol.

Have an awesome day! 

Thank God for everything :)